Method My final exit path

[deathoverlife]

I have been on this since a while, initially I thought of over dosing. But the literature I read on it discouraged me to do as there is a better chance of surviving than killing one self .
Although I still feel overdosing on high blood pressure pills will help achieve the goal. How ever I am still not sure of the mg one need to consume. As I read some where that depending on an individual's weight the mg to taken need to be calculated. Will appreciate any inputs on this :)

Then I came across inert gases which will give a peaceful exit. Nitrogen argon and helium top the list. But if one could get hold of pure helium even that would do thr job. I could get thru a helium dealer who supplies 99% pure helium.

onewayroad a member of our group said argon is easier to procure. I googled a lil and yes it is available and at a much better price than helium.

Still good amount of work to do around it ..am sure I would be there in time ....

Getting into this group gave me so much comfort. Was dying to speak about it to some one openly without being judged. Thanks to the makers of this forum and all you lovely people out there. Feel like home finally. And am sure you guys would be around guiding and supporting.

Am done with listening to the crap of things will get better ..stay strong ...positive blah ..blah blah blah !! Its my life and I have my free will. And i see this group respects that. Wish I was here sooner

So people how is your journey towards you final exit... care to share ??

 

[Jblack]

The journey for me is a path that I am walking down trying to find the end. I have not reached the time to exit. It sometimes feels like I just don't have the energy to leave the world. Kind of pathetic, I know. It takes all the effort I can come up with just to get out of bed.

I keep thinking that I will know when it is time as a sort of peace will settle over me. There are times when I think that I am ready to slip the noose around my neck and just go off to the next world. But I just don't feel like going through the process. Not scared mind up, just not able to get up the physical drive to do it. I am hoping to find the right location for my exit, although I am not sure exactly where that will be. I do know that I don't want to walk into some woods and hang from a tree. It just seem too cold and impersonal. I am rambling here a little, I know.

I do know that I will have a nice meal and bottle of wine when it is time. Then go to my location and do my final prep before exiting. I have even decided what I want to wear.

One thing I can't decide on is if I will exit alone or with a partner. At times I feel like exiting with someone will make it easier and they will provide a certain level of comfort and caring. On the other hand there are a lot of complications with exiting with a partner so I am up in the air on that one.

I do agree with your comment that there is a comfort in this group, I really don't feel like people are judging me. I can speak and the folks will listen and understand. That is a bid help.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

If your thinking about od on digoxin high blood pressure pills, there has never been a single case of anyone with suicidal intention dying this way. According to ncbi.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

If i go it will be by sodium nitrite, though nembutal would be better.

 

[NoOneKnows]

My path is to jump from my room, 8 store building..Im planning it for 5 years intensively, i ve done some overdoses meanwhile...However situation is so serious now, that i cant no longer put it off. Only I started to have doubts, there are trees approx 2 metres to the left, right under my window there is a bit of grass, Im wondering there is a chance i might fall to the left on those trees? or the speed is so fast i go straight down

 

[Limbo]

My path is to jump from my room, 8 store building..Im planning it for 5 years intensively, i ve done some overdoses meanwhile...However situation is so serious now, that i cant no longer put it off. Only I started to have doubts, there are trees approx 2 metres to the left, right under my window there is a bit of grass, Im wondering there is a chance i might fall to the left on those trees? or the speed is so fast i go straight down

Thats too much risk for my liking. Id be too scared to be a vegetable or paralyzed.

 

[NoOneKnows]

Thats too much risk for my liking. Id be not scared to be a vegetable or paralyzed.

oh ....why do you think its too much risk ? : ((

 

[Limbo]

oh ....why do you think its too much risk ? : ((

8 stories is around 35 metres. People have survived these falls. Also you mention you could land on trees. Have you ever freefalled? If you havnt then you will have no time to practice shifting your body.

 

[deathoverlife]

If your thinking about od on digoxin high blood pressure pills, there has never been a single case of anyone with suicidal intention dying this way. According to ncbi.

i have a heart condition 'tachycardia' and i am always on the lower side of BP.. i searched a lot...a person who have hart condition and also low BP will be at higher risk of passing away due to od of high blood pressure med.... it would be uncomfortable I guess..but not sure to what extent.. i count find much data on it..hence u had to drop the idea.

 

[deathoverlife]

If i go it will be by sodium nitrite, though nembutal would be better.

hmm...i wish i had access to them...it would have been much easier then thr gas method

 

[deathoverlife]

My path is to jump from my room, 8 store building..Im planning it for 5 years intensively, i ve done some overdoses meanwhile...However situation is so serious now, that i cant no longer put it off. Only I started to have doubts, there are trees approx 2 metres to the left, right under my window there is a bit of grass, Im wondering there is a chance i might fall to the left on those trees? or the speed is so fast i go straight down

you are a brave one..i cant imagine jumping drowning..or shooting my self..dont thing i can ever pull the trigger... am scared for you as well. pls plan well and look at all the out comes when you go ahead with that method. do not want you to end up worse than you feel already :(

 

[open skyes]

I have been on this since a while, initially I thought of over dosing. But the literature I read on it discouraged me to do as there is a better chance of surviving than killing one self .
Although I still feel overdosing on high blood pressure pills will help achieve the goal. How ever I am still not sure of the mg one need to consume. As I read some where that depending on an individual's weight the mg to taken need to be calculated. Will appreciate any inputs on this :)

Then I came across inert gases which will give a peaceful exit. Nitrogen argon and helium top the list. But if one could get hold of pure helium even that would do thr job. I could get thru a helium dealer who supplies 99% pure helium.

onewayroad a member of our group said argon is easier to procure. I googled a lil and yes it is available and at a much better price than helium.

Still good amount of work to do around it ..am sure I would be there in time ....

Getting into this group gave me so much comfort. Was dying to speak about it to some one openly without being judged. Thanks to the makers of this forum and all you lovely people out there. Feel like home finally. And am sure you guys would be around guiding and supporting.

Am done with listening to the crap of things will get better ..stay strong ...positive blah ..blah blah blah !! Its my life and I have my free will. And i see this group respects that. Wish I was here sooner

So people how is your journey towards you final exit... care to share ??

I have been on this since a while, initially I thought of over dosing. But the literature I read on it discouraged me to do as there is a better chance of surviving than killing one self .
Although I still feel overdosing on high blood pressure pills will help achieve the goal. How ever I am still not sure of the mg one need to consume. As I read some where that depending on an individual's weight the mg to taken need to be calculated. Will appreciate any inputs on this :)

Then I came across inert gases which will give a peaceful exit. Nitrogen argon and helium top the list. But if one could get hold of pure helium even that would do thr job. I could get thru a helium dealer who supplies 99% pure helium.

onewayroad a member of our group said argon is easier to procure. I googled a lil and yes it is available and at a much better price than helium.

Still good amount of work to do around it ..am sure I would be there in time ....

Getting into this group gave me so much comfort. Was dying to speak about it to some one openly without being judged. Thanks to the makers of this forum and all you lovely people out there. Feel like home finally. And am sure you guys would be around guiding and supporting.

Am done with listening to the crap of things will get better ..stay strong ...positive blah ..blah blah blah !! Its my life and I have my free will. And i see this group respects that. Wish I was here sooner

So people how is your journey towards you final exit... care to share ??

I want to be be gone. Not sure how to make it happen. Am terrified, not by the death but by thr thought of failing and ending up on a hospital bed :(:(:(

 

[Schopenhauer]

My path is to jump from my room, 8 store building..Im planning it for 5 years intensively, i ve done some overdoses meanwhile...However situation is so serious now, that i cant no longer put it off. Only I started to have doubts, there are trees approx 2 metres to the left, right under my window there is a bit of grass, Im wondering there is a chance i might fall to the left on those trees? or the speed is so fast i go straight down

Is that high enough? A very quick literature search yielded this:

In patients with head and chest injuries, a 50% mortality rate was estimated to occur at falls from 10.5m, compared to 22.4m in those without injuries to head or chest.

50% mortality rate to ininjured jumpers, according to Dickinson et al.
https://jramc.bmj.com/content/158/2/123.long

I can help with a more thorough search later, if you want.

 

[deathoverlife]

Thats too much risk for my liking. Id be too scared to be a vegetable or paralyzed.

i can't imagine doing thst

Is that high enough? A very quick literature search yielded this:

In patients with head and chest injuries, a 50% mortality rate was estimated to occur at falls from 10.5m, compared to 22.4m in those without injuries to head or chest.

50% mortality rate to ininjured jumpers, according to Dickinson et al.
https://jramc.bmj.com/content/158/2/123.long

I can help with a more thorough search later, if you want.

any input on od

 

[open skyes]

you are a brave one..i cant imagine jumping drowning..or shooting my self..dont thing i can ever pull the trigger... am scared for you as well. pls plan well and look at all the out comes when you go ahead with that method. do not want you to end up worse than you feel already :(

Indeed

 

[Schopenhauer]

i can't imagine doing thst

any input on od

Ods are usually unreliable. Unless you use Nembutal, or very strong opioids (e.g. Fentanyl). Otherwise, there's a fairly high likelihood of waking up in a hospital, branded as an "attempted suicide".

 

[deathoverlife]

Ods are usually unreliable. Unless you use Nembutal, or very strong opioids (e.g. Fentanyl). Otherwise, there's a fairly high likelihood of waking up in a hospital, branded as an "attempted suicide".

am not confident of

Ods are usually unreliable. Unless you use Nembutal, or very strong opioids (e.g. Fentanyl). Otherwise, there's a fairly high likelihood of waking up in a hospital, branded as an "attempted suicide".

am nervous about using inert gas as well... helium or ergon depends on which one I can procure easly..i can't fail...i can never fail.. thinking od popping in some pills and then getting on with thr gas...am so desperate.. can't afford a failure :(

 

[azeton]

I choose Nitrogen. Or medical Dinitrogen monoxide N²O - I want to die with enjoyment and euphoria.

 

[NoOneKnows]

Is that high enough? A very quick literature search yielded this:

In patients with head and chest injuries, a 50% mortality rate was estimated to occur at falls from 10.5m, compared to 22.4m in those without injuries to head or chest.

50% mortality rate to ininjured jumpers, according to Dickinson et al.
https://jramc.bmj.com/content/158/2/123.long

I can help with a more thorough search later, if you want.

Thank u for reply....high enough, yes som,eone mentioned 32 metres...here it is knowsn from 6 stories up not likely to survive...What I am curious about is where will i land..as few metres away a re trees..i worry i might land and than bounce up on those trees or something....but i think with that speed it will be straight fall i mean the trajectory should be direct ? I have to do this method. IF you would be so kind and willing to do a bit research ,thank u

 

[NoOneKnows]

you are a brave one..i cant imagine jumping drowning..or shooting my self..dont thing i can ever pull the trigger... am scared for you as well. pls plan well and look at all the out comes when you go ahead with that method. do not want you to end up worse than you feel already :(

Thank you so much, you are so kind...it warms my heart, someone says is worried about me, someone who dont even know me. Thank you for that. It feels lovely. : *

 

[deathoverlife]

Thank you so much, you are so kind...it warms my heart, someone says is worried about me, someone who dont even know me. Thank you for that. It feels lovely. : *

its seems sadest people are the kindest... may be coz we understand the pain..hence do not want any one to go thru that... physical or mental..!! i can imagine how hard you must be hurting to choose to jump. you are not concerned about the physical pain thats could cause before death. i really really want you to take care of your self till you decide on your time.
we could be strangers and anonymous..but we do share something in common.. pain, distress and suffering we are going thru in our life. hence we can genuinely empathise.. and wish for a successful and painless way to leave this world

 

[Duqu]

I'm so happy for this site. So many understanding people and I've learned SO much about different ways. I have two "foolproof" ways on my shelf now (might do both at the same time; opioid od and SN) I'd never heard of SN or inert gasses or known that zofran wouldn't be a good enough anti-emetic (I've been stockpiling it but I know I need meto- which I have procured). I probably would have failed via vomiting it all up. And then I woudn't be able to get people to rx me painkillers anymore and I wouldn't have a way out (because doggon it I need those freaking painkillers! I have a bunch of really painful coniditons!).

 

[Jblack]

Just a comment about using inert gases. Helium is usually the go to for most but it is expensive and a grade that is pure enough to use is hard to obtain. Nitrogen on the other hand works just like helium, is very cheap and readily available. If you are concerned about someone asking what you going to do with the nitrogen, it is commonly used in home beer brewing. Liquid nitrogen will also work and is commonly used at home to snap freeze fruits and vegetables for freezer storage. I have looked at this method and given it a lot of thought.

 

[deathoverlife]

Just a comment about using inert gases. Helium is usually the go to for most but it is expensive and a grade that is pure enough to use is hard to obtain. Nitrogen on the other hand works just like helium, is very cheap and readily available. If you are concerned about someone asking what you going to do with the nitrogen, it is commonly used in home beer brewing. Liquid nitrogen will also work and is commonly used at home to snap freeze fruits and vegetables for freezer storage. I have looked at this method and given it a lot of thought.

can you elobrsye more on thr use of nitrogen gas at home...am aware of the uses of liquid nitrogen..but it can't be an alternative for nitrogen gas...

 

[open skyes]

Just a comment about using inert gases. Helium is usually the go to for most but it is expensive and a grade that is pure enough to use is hard to obtain. Nitrogen on the other hand works just like helium, is very cheap and readily available. If you are concerned about someone asking what you going to do with the nitrogen, it is commonly used in home beer brewing. Liquid nitrogen will also work and is commonly used at home to snap freeze fruits and vegetables for freezer storage. I have looked at this method and given it a lot of thought.

I have read about exit gas method.

 

[deathoverlife]

Still struggling to decide my

Am still confused and scared

its normal to be scsred. even after zeroing down on the method i want to use, am still nervous and scared.. thoughts like will i be able to execute perfectly for the attempt to be successful. the thought of failing the make the chills run down my spine.

first make up your mind if you really want to ctb..then try and figure out the way you want to go ahead with.
its definstely is not an easy decision. it took more than 3 months for me to come to a conclusion. Be patient with you self .try to look our for literature on the net.. any way this group is always there for any support you need.

 

[onewayroad]

I have been on this since a while, initially I thought of over dosing. But the literature I read on it discouraged me to do as there is a better chance of surviving than killing one self .
Although I still feel overdosing on high blood pressure pills will help achieve the goal. How ever I am still not sure of the mg one need to consume. As I read some where that depending on an individual's weight the mg to taken need to be calculated. Will appreciate any inputs on this :)

Then I came across inert gases which will give a peaceful exit. Nitrogen argon and helium top the list. But if one could get hold of pure helium even that would do thr job. I could get thru a helium dealer who supplies 99% pure helium.

onewayroad a member of our group said argon is easier to procure. I googled a lil and yes it is available and at a much better price than helium.

Still good amount of work to do around it ..am sure I would be there in time ....

Getting into this group gave me so much comfort. Was dying to speak about it to some one openly without being judged. Thanks to the makers of this forum and all you lovely people out there. Feel like home finally. And am sure you guys would be around guiding and supporting.

Am done with listening to the crap of things will get better ..stay strong ...positive blah ..blah blah blah !! Its my life and I have my free will. And i see this group respects that. Wish I was here sooner

So people how is your journey towards you final exit... care to share ??

I'm proud to be a part of this website and was able to help. I hope you keep us updated and we can all be a comfort to you whatever you decide to do.

My path is to jump from my room, 8 store building..Im planning it for 5 years intensively, i ve done some overdoses meanwhile...However situation is so serious now, that i cant no longer put it off. Only I started to have doubts, there are trees approx 2 metres to the left, right under my window there is a bit of grass, Im wondering there is a chance i might fall to the left on those trees? or the speed is so fast i go straight down

I don't recommend this method at that height. I had a friend jump from the same height and land on concrete. It took him over 24 hours to die and it was not pretty. Too risky that you will die a long painful death or worse, live on as a vegetable.

 

[deathoverlife]

I'm proud to be a part of this website and was able to help. I hope you keep us updated and we can all be a comfort to you whatever you decide to do.



I don't recommend this method at that height. I had a friend jump from the same height and land on concrete. It took him over 24 hours to die and it was not pretty. Too risky that you will die a long painful death or worse, live on as a vegetable.

this sounds scary @NoOneKnows

 

[Salvacion]

Is that high enough? A very quick literature search yielded this:

In patients with head and chest injuries, a 50% mortality rate was estimated to occur at falls from 10.5m, compared to 22.4m in those without injuries to head or chest.

50% mortality rate to ininjured jumpers, according to Dickinson et al.
https://jramc.bmj.com/content/158/2/123.long

I can help with a more thorough search later, if you want.

Do you feel 130ft is high enough

 

[Schopenhauer]

Do you feel 130ft is high enough

I think so. Any height over 100ft is generally considered non-survivable. See
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15942337

There's at at least one documented exception to this: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3212924/
A woman survived a fall of 300ft. But her case is definitely non-representative.