Imhopeless
Member
- Jul 24, 2023
- 20
I feel like everyone can have their thoughts and opinions so here are mine.
This site is both beautiful and grotesque, I think people are doomed to be suicidal at some point and it's a good thing we can share our thoughts and experiences with people who have similar mindsets and are very openly accepting of taboo topics. I found this site while watching that one dude's video about why this site is bad(everyone who has been here for a while knows who I'm talking about). I dont agree with him, what people like him don't understand is what for most people is an uncomfortable conversation with "mentally ill" person is just a weight off the shoulder for others. Just because someone doesn't understand feeling of being miserable enough to want to end it early, doesn't mean it should be a taboo. This site made me learn more about things no one from my life would dare to talk about me with. People here are great, some are more sharp but the point is we all are here accepting one another and that's what I'm most grateful for on this site.
There are also things that made me realise how bad of an influence this site may be for those who are like me. I'm not talking about suicidal methods because everyone has a choice and to be a good person you need to accept that people's choices are theirs, you can't argue with them, as long as they're adults it's their lives. Anyhow what I'm talking about is probably just directed to a group of people, the ones that come here to fuel their misery. I always come vent here when I'm at my lowest, when my brain automatically goes to "let's just end it all", I came here for attention that there are people who will feel pity for me. What some people(like I used to) doesn't realise is the fact that other users here aren't your friends, they aren't your therapist. After a while of just coming here and getting support I so much needed I became addicted to this site. I wanted people to acknowledge me and my problems, I would get upset if I didn't get much comments. You might say that things like that are written in the regulations but let's be honest, do most of people read it? You can say it's wrong to enter this site without reading the rules but im sure most people here are underage anyway.
My point is people can get addicted to anything and I'm the proof of that. No matter how much therapy I got or how much I detoxed from this site I still keep coming back because acknowledgement and attention from people I'll never meet is too comforting. Right, it might not be a bad thing if it's just venting and wanting comfort but I kept on coming back and every addiction is a bad one. It might not seem so serious now but there were so many vents I had to delete from here because I didn't get the reaction I wanted, it's crazy.
I know this isn't the site's fault, I did it to myself and I just blame the site for this but for me it's hard to accept that it was 100% my fault. I want to thank all the people here, I dont want to come back to this site, I don't want to keep on feeling even more miserable because I didn't receive the feedback I wanted.
Like I said, I dont blame the site or the users, I just got too addicted to the comfort of people who don't even know me. I'll probably come back to this site every now and then but I'll try to keep it minimal. Stay safe everyone and don't get too tangled up in other people's pity for you.
This site is both beautiful and grotesque, I think people are doomed to be suicidal at some point and it's a good thing we can share our thoughts and experiences with people who have similar mindsets and are very openly accepting of taboo topics. I found this site while watching that one dude's video about why this site is bad(everyone who has been here for a while knows who I'm talking about). I dont agree with him, what people like him don't understand is what for most people is an uncomfortable conversation with "mentally ill" person is just a weight off the shoulder for others. Just because someone doesn't understand feeling of being miserable enough to want to end it early, doesn't mean it should be a taboo. This site made me learn more about things no one from my life would dare to talk about me with. People here are great, some are more sharp but the point is we all are here accepting one another and that's what I'm most grateful for on this site.
There are also things that made me realise how bad of an influence this site may be for those who are like me. I'm not talking about suicidal methods because everyone has a choice and to be a good person you need to accept that people's choices are theirs, you can't argue with them, as long as they're adults it's their lives. Anyhow what I'm talking about is probably just directed to a group of people, the ones that come here to fuel their misery. I always come vent here when I'm at my lowest, when my brain automatically goes to "let's just end it all", I came here for attention that there are people who will feel pity for me. What some people(like I used to) doesn't realise is the fact that other users here aren't your friends, they aren't your therapist. After a while of just coming here and getting support I so much needed I became addicted to this site. I wanted people to acknowledge me and my problems, I would get upset if I didn't get much comments. You might say that things like that are written in the regulations but let's be honest, do most of people read it? You can say it's wrong to enter this site without reading the rules but im sure most people here are underage anyway.
My point is people can get addicted to anything and I'm the proof of that. No matter how much therapy I got or how much I detoxed from this site I still keep coming back because acknowledgement and attention from people I'll never meet is too comforting. Right, it might not be a bad thing if it's just venting and wanting comfort but I kept on coming back and every addiction is a bad one. It might not seem so serious now but there were so many vents I had to delete from here because I didn't get the reaction I wanted, it's crazy.
I know this isn't the site's fault, I did it to myself and I just blame the site for this but for me it's hard to accept that it was 100% my fault. I want to thank all the people here, I dont want to come back to this site, I don't want to keep on feeling even more miserable because I didn't receive the feedback I wanted.
Like I said, I dont blame the site or the users, I just got too addicted to the comfort of people who don't even know me. I'll probably come back to this site every now and then but I'll try to keep it minimal. Stay safe everyone and don't get too tangled up in other people's pity for you.
