-FrozenRobot-
Let me go...please
- Jul 27, 2021
- 218
Hello kind strangers!
I'm just so desperate to die right now that I'm thinking about jumping off the balcony I'm standing in.
I made my first serious attempt in partial hanging in 2021 February. But I was rescued before I could execute it and I was hospitalized for a while. Since then I'm on psychiatric meds and seeing a doctor.
I've always wanted to CTB. No matter if I'm happy or sad. It only feels right to do that when I have unsuppotive parents and a bad family structure. Plus I'm bipolar. There seems to be no hope for me.
Yesterday I called my mom and I was talking about how I feel and stuff. She said when I talk about these things, it's making her feel depressed and wish she never gave birth to me. What kind of mom would say that ? If you're wondering why I called my mom, she's the only person I trust and believe in. But even she shut me out. Now I'm all on my own. I was planning on stabbing myself in the chest but then I realized it has a high rate of failure.
I wish someone would tell me that everything will be okay but deep down I know nothing is going to be okay with me and things will only get worse with time.
Sorry for taking your time. I just wanted to get this out of my chest.
I hope you are all doing fine mentally.
Thanks guys. See you later
I'm just so desperate to die right now that I'm thinking about jumping off the balcony I'm standing in.
I made my first serious attempt in partial hanging in 2021 February. But I was rescued before I could execute it and I was hospitalized for a while. Since then I'm on psychiatric meds and seeing a doctor.
I've always wanted to CTB. No matter if I'm happy or sad. It only feels right to do that when I have unsuppotive parents and a bad family structure. Plus I'm bipolar. There seems to be no hope for me.
Yesterday I called my mom and I was talking about how I feel and stuff. She said when I talk about these things, it's making her feel depressed and wish she never gave birth to me. What kind of mom would say that ? If you're wondering why I called my mom, she's the only person I trust and believe in. But even she shut me out. Now I'm all on my own. I was planning on stabbing myself in the chest but then I realized it has a high rate of failure.
I wish someone would tell me that everything will be okay but deep down I know nothing is going to be okay with me and things will only get worse with time.
Sorry for taking your time. I just wanted to get this out of my chest.
I hope you are all doing fine mentally.
Thanks guys. See you later