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lonergirl_26
Student
- Sep 1, 2024
- 137
Quick back story my mum ignored everything. That's just who she is. Like the doctor told her she needed to call mental health services and tell them I tried to od and need to be a priority to hurry them up but she didn't.
Now we are here today I stopped taking my meds about a month ago. Started taking Xanax daily and molly once to twice a week. Restricting. Once again talking to creepy men online because I'm so lonely and just want someone to talk to. Purposely hurt the boyfriend for no reason other than to hurt myself. Cut my face. Told my family I want to re home my guinea pigs.
So yeah things haven't been going to well lately
Some of those have been noticeable with comments made by my family,
'Why aren't you earning again'
'What happened to your face'
'I bet you weigh under 40kg'
'you aren't being yourself'
'Are you still taking your medication'
'You love your guinea pigs you constantly say you want more why are you talking about getting rid of them'
Some concerning behaviour I guess that my family are becoming more vocal about but will they do anything?
Will they take me back to the doctors?
Will they ignore it until the day I finally do it and then act surprised I did it?
Now we are here today I stopped taking my meds about a month ago. Started taking Xanax daily and molly once to twice a week. Restricting. Once again talking to creepy men online because I'm so lonely and just want someone to talk to. Purposely hurt the boyfriend for no reason other than to hurt myself. Cut my face. Told my family I want to re home my guinea pigs.
So yeah things haven't been going to well lately
Some of those have been noticeable with comments made by my family,
'Why aren't you earning again'
'What happened to your face'
'I bet you weigh under 40kg'
'you aren't being yourself'
'Are you still taking your medication'
'You love your guinea pigs you constantly say you want more why are you talking about getting rid of them'
Some concerning behaviour I guess that my family are becoming more vocal about but will they do anything?
Will they take me back to the doctors?
Will they ignore it until the day I finally do it and then act surprised I did it?