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northerner

northerner

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Feb 2, 2026
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in autumn of 2024 my parents divorced. i am 20 years old and the housing market where i am is shit so i still live with my parents. for all of 2025 i lived with my dad because he has a disability and i didn't want him living alone, but then at the beginning of this year due to circumstances beyond any of our control i had to move back in with my mom and 2 siblings, 17f and 18m. when i came back in january my siblings were a lot closer than before and i felt very out of the loop, which was already crushing because i am/used to be very close with my siblings.

to make matters worse, my brother has been dating a girl i can only describe as an evil bitch. she's cheated on literally every partner she's ever had, works full time but expects my student brother to pay for everything, and cuts my sister and i out of plans any chance she gets. recently she blocked me on instagram, and when i texted my brother about it he left me on read. i complained to my mom and sister and they said i should just leave it alone because they're in love so who cares but i cannot take it any longer. i know my brother is going to hate me if i bring it up again, especially since we've already grown apart so much over the last year.

plus, my mother is perpetually upset with me because i wanted to move out with my dad in the first place, my aunt and uncle hate me because they think i was just "leeching off my dad" (i was his full time caregiver and they manage his finances from another city entirely), and my grandpa is upset with me because i apparently don't visit my dad enough since i've moved out (i visit at least once a week while working three jobs).

so, to sum it all up: i've somehow managed to drive away my parents, my brother, my aunt and uncle, my only living grandparent In the span of less than 2 years. yay me. no wonder I want to kill myself, right?
 
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