My eating disorder has relapsed

[Ednospatient]

My ED has relapsed and its worse than ever. I throw up multiple times a day. I can barely eat anything. My life is hell on earth. I live in supported housing and I've begged them to let me kill myself but they say they can't give the permission to do that and it's my own choice. They also know about my SN plans and I'm not sure if they will intervene once it arrives, they probably will. I would rather kill myself at a time of my own choosing rather than suffer and starve in a hospital bed for weeks or months. I've tried hanging myself at least 10 times but I've never managed to make myself pass out. Yesterday I got a little bit dizzy though.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. It sounds really horrible what you are going through, I can imagine that it must be unbearable. I wish you the best in whatever happens.