Weak lol, anyone talking this way never confronted himself to an act of suicide. It's not only confronting death but the act of doing it by yourself, and it's a whole different story. It asks courage, determination.
That's the speech of empty people who knows nothing about the subject first. Secondly this is not very smart and the only way he found to try discourage you of doing it (makes you feel bad, ashamed, guilty), which is usually what common and selfish people do.
Parents are often (for many of us) even a particular subject, as they may have a clear responsability in the way you are and the difficulty that you encounter.
My mother did make children in terrible condition, like real bad choice, she was very young, with a very bad guy, much older than her. I won't give details, but it's worst than a drama fiction. She raised my sister and i alone, we were very poor even if she worked, and she was very depressed and not really caring. We had to care for the house to be clean, prepare the food everyday and serve her at bed (yeah some kind of little slaves, no joke) and many stuffs. She was violent regularly, mentally or physically, sometimes without reasons; i don't know just needed to let off steam i guess.
My sister had huge problems, she was already lost in self-destruct process as a teenager. Alcoholic in hard way and with epilepsy background (which has been treated during childhood but came back violently due to her lifestyle), she went down badly and died from epilepsy crises at 31, after doing the same error than my mother and having given birth to two children (pity for them to be welcome in this genealogy and handle troubles...).
Few months back, i tried to be honnest on my intentions with my mother, especially to warn her about getting back my stuffs etc. She turned crazy, it was just "me, me, me; don't do me that, i don't deserve that, i already lost your sister, do you realise what you say to me", so selfish reactions, just her and her eventual sufferings. She never tried to speak to me with empathy, try to understand my choice, my own situation, my own feelings. And it's the same bullshit since i'm young, no joke. No matter how i suffer, i have to endure it to preserve her for suffering more. She always playing the sad mother about loosing my sister, how it's hard blabla. She always present herself as the strong and sacrificing mother, to other people, like the super model of perfect caring parents; can't stand those bullshits. So who's the selfish ones, seriously?
There are few thigs to understand when considering suicide: Never talk to it to anybody (thats what make this place so special...), no matter how close you are from the person, friends, family, or outside even doctor and so-called specialist, no one will understand, they will all try to discourage you (most often in very bad ways). They could even call the police or the hospital and jail you into psychiatric institution...
Secondly, if there are people you really care about and you don't want them to be hurt by your death, then cut relationship with them discretly way before.... Began by deleting your social medias, if some of them realise it, explain that you decided to stop with that, being tired of the internet virtual life. Don't give news, be progressively distant, not within days, progressively... for it doesn't appear suspicious. Then after a certain time change your phone number and give it to no one. You will just disappear as it happens in life.
This is what i did , and few caring friends won't be affected, they won't even realise what happened.
About my mother? I don't care, yes she will know and i don't give a fuck. Everyone has to handle their responsabilities, it's time for her, to stop lying to herself and look to the reality. It's not bad luck to have lost violently both children, but the consequences of the very bad choices she made and the very bad way she raised them. So take that in your face and suffer as you should instead of trying putting that on me since decades.
Remember one thing in life: people usually just talk to themselves. I mean constantly. If you hear weak, selfish and other stuffs in the mouth of your father, analyse it a bit and you'll surely realise that he's talking about himself. People reproach to other what they are.
