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SleepingBliss
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- Jul 3, 2024
- 20
Hello friend I commented recently that my boyfriend recently cheated and I made myself a promise that if I lost him for any reason I would ctb as I wanted to but couldn't do that to him and could possibly see a future with him but that has changed now due to the cheating so I ordered my sn and it arrives next week I was going to walk out to the woods to a nice spot I like and take it so I was far away from any possible 'rescue' and not tell anyone I would just disappear and be missing until found dead but my boyfriend went through my emails and saw the order confirmation so now he knows I ordered and he knows what it is because he knows my suicide history.
I call him boyfriend because we have not formally broken up due to me looking for new accommodation. I am worried he will intervene or tell others.
I call him boyfriend because we have not formally broken up due to me looking for new accommodation. I am worried he will intervene or tell others.