Venting My body is the biggest reason to ctb

[LevUwU]

I hate it. I hate it so much. No matter what I ever do it will always be so horribly wrong. I feel trapped beyond belief I want to rip off my flesh and rip out my bones. Pluck out each and every hair and even then it would never be enough. The pain of having a body is one I cannot handle.

 

[captivebutterfly]

My main reason is because I'm neurodivergent struggling to fit in in a naurotypical world. But my second biggest reason is my body. Doesn't matter what I do it it, how I abuse it, it will never look the way I want it to.. I've ruined my skin and metabolism forever from a decade of self harming and bulimia. I despise this body of mine, it feels like I'm suffocating in it. I just want to be somebody else.