Venting My birthday is on Friday and I feel I have wasted my time

[helicoptero]

Today my mom mentioned that I'll be 23 on Friday. And that made me have thousands of thoughts in an instant.

Most people my age already have a degree, or are about to obtain it. Some others already have a job... Some even don't live with their parents anymore.

And here I am... Almost 23, with only high school finished and have never had a job, living with my parents.

I know everyone's circumstances are different, and that comparing yourself to others is pointless... But I can't help feeling like a failure.

I know it's not because I'm lazy... I've had many problems and that's why I got "behind" others... But a part of me doesn't care about that and just constantly makes me feel that I'm a parasite, a failure, and useless.

I don't know what I'll be doing in my birthday. But I don't want it to come.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

i feel every word of this. im in basically the same situation. birthdays are just a huge painful reminder of how behind i am. its good that you recognise that youve been struggling with things that are out of your control, i can definitely relate to putting myself down over it and feeling like a leech and ik how difficult it is to recognise ur not just lazy. i hope you can be kind to yourself during ur birthday, its the least u deserve.

 

[JustHereforNow]

With everything that has happened the last couple years, living at home is very common, especially with economy being a garbage fire atm. I wouldnt put to much thought into it.

 

[helicoptero]

i feel every word of this. im in basically the same situation. birthdays are just a huge painful reminder of how behind i am. its good that you recognise that youve been struggling with things that are out of your control, i can definitely relate to putting myself down over it and feeling like a leech and ik how difficult it is to recognise ur not just lazy. i hope you can be kind to yourself during ur birthday, its the least u deserve.

Thank you so much, I wish the same for you. Sending you a warm hug <3

With everything that has happened the last couple years, living at home is very common, especially with economy being a garbage fire atm. I wouldnt put to much thought into it.

Yeah you're right... It's becoming more and more common.