My biggest fear

[fficiallyjawshh]

Is that I'll fail guys . And my family and friends will be here to try and fix the probably even more broken me when I just wanna be done . It fucking stresses me out . I don't want to return back here, giving them the hope that I'd want to recover and get better and lead this happy life when I'm just going to try and kill myself again and again until I finally do . This is so rambly I apologize, I'm incredibly scatterbrained . I don't even know what I accomplish by posting this ? Having it be in the air I guess, in the rare off chance someone close to me finds this after I've hopefully passed .

 

[Neverod]

Well, that's normal, all of us need to vent, even a little, and this place is great to do so, nothing bad in doing it.
What will be your method may i ask?

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Study well your method. The more you research then less probabilities of failure. Wish you the best on what you choose.

 

[fficiallyjawshh]

Well, that's normal, all of us need to vent, even a little, and this place is great to do so, nothing bad in doing it.
What will be your method may i ask?

Originally was going to be CO2 . But there can be a lot of setup and it wouldn't be ideal givin my current situation in life . As of now that just a classic od . Despite the... iffy success rate I have fentanyl in a few of the oxys so that is what I'm really rooting to push me over amongst other things in the concoction . Back burner is partial or SN . I'll see though :/

 

[JimFord99]

Study well your method. The more you research then less probabilities of failure. Wish you the best on what you choose.

Yeah, do your preparation work well and thorough, do not rush.