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Exiled spirit
Member
- Dec 25, 2019
- 98
I'm in a state of mental torture. I have severe social anxiety and suicidal thoughts and can't even talk about that to my parents. In fact, my parents are one of the main reasons why I want to end my life.
I also can't afford therapy or find a job. finding a job in Egypt is extremely difficult without knowing someone or being highly educated and talented. And on the top of that, the only suicide method suitable for me requires money which I don't have right now. I need to start saving money for one or two years in order to be financially able to carry on with my suicide plan.
In other words, I have to wait for about two years in order to end my life. That means that I have to endure my life during this period. The problem is that I'm not sure I can wait all that time because my life is getting worse in a rapid rate.
I'm afraid that, under pressure, I may resort to a risky suicide method. I live in an apartment in the 5th floor. I know that jumping off this height is extremely risky and can leave me with a lasting injury instead of putting me out of my misery. But I may do it if I got exposed to a lot of pressure.
That's my biggest fear.
I also can't afford therapy or find a job. finding a job in Egypt is extremely difficult without knowing someone or being highly educated and talented. And on the top of that, the only suicide method suitable for me requires money which I don't have right now. I need to start saving money for one or two years in order to be financially able to carry on with my suicide plan.
In other words, I have to wait for about two years in order to end my life. That means that I have to endure my life during this period. The problem is that I'm not sure I can wait all that time because my life is getting worse in a rapid rate.
I'm afraid that, under pressure, I may resort to a risky suicide method. I live in an apartment in the 5th floor. I know that jumping off this height is extremely risky and can leave me with a lasting injury instead of putting me out of my misery. But I may do it if I got exposed to a lot of pressure.
That's my biggest fear.