I attempted ctb for the first time last week. I don't know if I was rly intending to die. I told myself it would just be a test run but I was also prepared to die. It's weird, like I keep expecting that things would hv changed, or I'll atleast get concerned messages from a friend that knew. Instead, there's nothing. I haven't felt anything about it either, I rly expected to freak out if I survived but I'm just going abt my day. Everything is weirdly normal
