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squareminus1

squareminus1

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Aug 12, 2023
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I am usually never in this form, I want to kill myself, so usually in the other one. Someone made a post there the otherday about which song youd listen to while you ctb and it got me thinking. I think the only time i sometimes truely hace no negative thoughts is when I blare my music through headphones in the dark. Not being able to listen to music again might be a massive factor in keeping my here. I just want to know if anyone relates, feel like that makes me sound kinda crazy

The fucking second I posted this and an Avicii song started playing, man this sucks I dunno what to do. Avicii changed music and committed suicide for those who don't know, it was fade into darkness that played, the vocal version
 
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anhedonicNfoggy

anhedonicNfoggy

i don’t know
Aug 7, 2023
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Honestly.. I find music just as devoid of pleasure as anything else. It helps a little to focus on getting work done. But it seems like every song out there is just background noise to me. I no longer remember the tunes or find any catchy. It's frustrating too bc I might try skipping to the next song hoping I'll feel something but I still feel the same. It's disappointing
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
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Yeah honestly SKZ and Enhypen are the only thing keeping me alive rn…I want to see what new music they'll release
 

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