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dauntra17
Member
- Aug 12, 2024
- 9
I can't talk to anyone else about this. But everything that could go wrong with my preparation, has. I ordered my cardiac meds and what was supposed to be a one week delivery is now being quoted as three. Okay, I can live with that. I also bought a computer so I can source benzos from a dnm. Accidentally bought two computers... How? Because I'm an idiot. This also overdrew my account. All that aside, I was not able to download tails yet because no computer, and now am learning the new tails update doesn't work for most people and the new one is aiming to be released mid September..... I have actually laughed till I cried. I'm holding on a day at a time, getting thru each day because I promise myself I will get to rest soon, that everything will be okay soon. But soon just keeps getting pushed farther and farther out and money is not endless and now I'm getting upset with the way society views suicide. It should be painless and with dignity, with family and friends there to say goodbye. It shouldn't be like this. The world is broken.