Mum talks about son who ctb (video)

[The.End]

Yesterday I was browsing YouTube and

Spoiler: THIS

video about suicide got recommended to me.

This video was released in February, when I first saw it yesterday it only had 75,000 view but today it has over 190,000. What's up with that google/YouTube algorithm? I swear google is the next SkyNet and we are all sheep on our way to the slaughter house. But that a whole different subject.

Anyway, this video is really sad and I can't get it out of my head. Watching this mother cry about the loss of her son (that committed suicide) breaks my heart because all I can see is my mother crying in her place. This women describes a pain only a mother that lost a child can feel.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

This video was released in February, when I first saw it yesterday it only had 75'000 view but today it has it has 190,000. What's up with that google/YouTube algorithm? I swear google is the next SkyNet and we are all sheep on our way to the slaughter house. But that a whole different subject.

That is the point.

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

Yeah. I have no idea what her son went through, obviously it must've been horrible, but that's what you inevitably leave behind in many cases. Your parents, which you hopefully loved and who hopefully did their best to raise you well, just torturing themselves over what they could've done.

If my mom was still alive and my dad was in a normal state of mind this thought would've haunted me.

 

[Partial-Elf]

The whole "what would it do to your parents?" question is tough.

On the one hand, it's a tragedy and a huge deterrent and leads to outcomes like we see in this video. I probably would've already offed myself in one of my lower periods had my parents not been in the picture.

On the other hand, the suffering of her son is not portrayed on video anywhere. If we had a video of him expressing his pain, hopelessness, despair, preference for death–then things would be more complex.

Still on the second hand–how long can a child be obligated to stay alive for a parent? 25 years? 50 years? 65 years? At some point it has to be okay for people to make their own decisions, including when it comes to ending their lives.

No easy answers here.

 

[chrijo]

What a loving mother.

This experience has destroyed her soul :-(

 

[HGL91]

What a loving mother.

This experience has destroyed her soul :-(

I watched the video and some of her others. She herself said that she suffered depression at times in her life and even went to an alternative school because she wasn't a good student. She also has 2 other kids she's sticking around for. So hard. :/

 

[Partial-Elf]

I watched the video and some of her others. She herself said that she suffered depression at times in her life and even went to an alternative school because she wasn't a good student. She also has 2 other kids she's sticking around for. So hard. :/

And this is a large part of why I don't plan on reproducing. I wouldn't wish my issues with depression/BPD on most people (I won't say my worst enemies, cause I'd wish even worse on them). But i definitely wouldn't pass these issues on to people I'm supposed to love and care for

 

[HGL91]

And this is a large part of why I don't plan on reproducing. I wouldn't wish my issues with depression/BPD on most people (I won't say my worst enemies, cause I'd wish even worse on them). But i definitely wouldn't pass these issues on to people I'm supposed to love and care for

I agree. If I was ever to have kids, I'd adopt, though I won't because I plan on dying and I'm way to easily bored to commit.

I was actually adopted, and love my adopted mom more than my birth mom because my birth mom brought me into this world, and was about to give me a crappy life, but at least my adopted mom gave me me a good family life and kept me healthy and safe, and rescued a child in need instead of bringing a new one into the world.

 

[thisplaceisaprison]

The video was really sad, but what caught my attention was her saying that if it was Zoloft he wouldn't had made it to the hospital in one of his attempts, but antidepressant overdoses are from what I understand unpredictable

 

[Morphinekiss]

I'm in the unfortunate position of already having seen my parents deal with one suicide, so I know exactly how they'd react if I ctb as well.

 

[lostangel]

I saw that being recommended to me but didn't click it. Don't know why though as everything suicide/depression related is always searched on incognito for me

 

[Quinlor]

The question is I believe that when I die, I just will die, right! .... and nothing going to matters anymore after this

 

[tomz323]

The whole "what would it do to your parents?" question is tough.

On the one hand, it's a tragedy and a huge deterrent and leads to outcomes like we see in this video. I probably would've already offed myself in one of my lower periods had my parents not been in the picture.

On the other hand, the suffering of her son is not portrayed on video anywhere. If we had a video of him expressing his pain, hopelessness, despair, preference for death–then things would be more complex.

Still on the second hand–how long can a child be obligated to stay alive for a parent? 25 years? 50 years? 65 years? At some point it has to be okay for people to make their own decisions, including when it comes to ending their lives.

No easy answers here.

No easy answers indeed. She doesn't seem to be abusive type like many other parents out there. You always have to do whats best for you in the end right? We are forced into existence and sentience then the world plays Frankenstein with us. But videos like this make me question myself.

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

Yes that's a very sad video and difficult to watch. Yes she's a loving caring mom and obviously in a lot of pain over her son.
But her son would have been in more pain living his life. It takes a lot to push someone to ctb. The SI is strong and to overcome it you are in so much pain it is unimaginable to anyone else. That's why people don't really understand ctb. They cannot as they will never feel such pain in their own lives.

 

[RM5998]

I can imagine my mom feeling like this (or at least saying that she felt like this). Unfortunately, the only thing I know how to do is try and fail to make her happy, so... yeah. Another thing to add onto the 'guilt' pile for me.

 

[Jessica5]

Aren't hospitals supposed to pretend that a lot of successful suicidal overdoses were accidental? Or at least that it's unconclusive? Similar to with car crashes into trees.