Venting Most of you deserved so much better and I’m so sorry

[fallendevil]

This is a random vent, and I'm probably making a broad generalization and I know that people are presenting themselves differently than they are on other places on the net or in real life (I'm actually a shit person who's bitter and negative most of the time, this forum is the only place where I've allowed myself to be vulnerable and I'm ashamed of the person I've become so deeply), and there are a lot of weird people on this forum who do and say questionable things, but I just want to say

There is a good chunk of you who I hurt for so badly, I mean obviously I'm not going to pretend that I'm going to be there for you or that I can help your pain in anyway as that's impossible and selfish since I haven't faced the burdens and pains that you deal with in your lives, but all of you guys seem like genuinely sweet people who were born in the wrong place at the wrong time, and I sincerely wish that things turned out differently for you and that you got to live the fairytale lives you deserve with the healthiest amount of conflict available.

I just hope you all know that a lot of your pain wasn't your fault. Maybe accountability is needed for certain things, but most of you guys never asked to spawn into environments with unsolved systematic issues from the adults who failed to protect and guide you from it, causing you to feel lost and alienated from the world as an adult.

I hope that one day you could look to the clouds in the grassiest field available free of any burdens or hate inside of you, regardless of which path you decide to take.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

That was a very heartfelt message. You are a considerate person, thinking about all of us, while you probably also are hurting. This may be just a message, but it sure touched me. Thank you for being empathic and compassionate. Mama bear is delighted with your comforting message, honey, and wishes nothing but the best to you. *bear hug*

 

[Pluto]

 

[Vivissa]

This is a random vent, and I'm probably making a broad generalization and I know that people are presenting themselves differently than they are on other places on the net or in real life (I'm actually a shit person who's bitter and negative most of the time, this forum is the only place where I've allowed myself to be vulnerable and I'm ashamed of the person I've become so deeply), and there are a lot of weird people on this forum who do and say questionable things, but I just want to say

There is a good chunk of you who I hurt for so badly, I mean obviously I'm not going to pretend that I'm going to be there for you or that I can help your pain in anyway as that's impossible and selfish since I haven't faced the burdens and pains that you deal with in your lives, but all of you guys seem like genuinely sweet people who were born in the wrong place at the wrong time, and I sincerely wish that things turned out differently for you and that you got to live the fairytale lives you deserve with the healthiest amount of conflict available.

I just hope you all know that a lot of your pain wasn't your fault. Maybe accountability is needed for certain things, but most of you guys never asked to spawn into environments with unsolved systematic issues from the adults who failed to protect and guide you from it, causing you to feel lost and alienated from the world as an adult.

I hope that one day you could look to the clouds in the grassiest field available free of any burdens or hate inside of you, regardless of which path you decide to take.

Life is complex. A "rude" comment saying somehting like "If you are concern for about 30 minutes of discomfort, maybe you are not suicidal at all. How would compare 30 mins of discomfort with a whole life?" I dont remeber where, neither who, but for me was a "change mind" moment. At first glance I thought he would considered as rude, but he was right. What we said is a chaotic and we dont know the effects, sometimes are for good aswell

 

[bankai]

Hey yeah,don't fret.this place is pretty tough on me,might need a break lol.different issues people face here are widespread.while I'm suffering a lot and I'm sure you are as well it's difficult to relate to others as everyone is so different and unique.

Hopefully life gets better for us.

 

[Dark Moon]

I'm somewhat bitter myself but it's really because of the bad experiences and trauma that's happened to me throughout my life and with my life circumstances I'm definitely suffering. It just gets overwhelming being an aspie on top of all of that. I'm not expecting life to better for me but thanks for your post though.

 

[wondering&wandering]

I get what you're saying, but sometimes people are just bad. I've created and continue to create my own problems. Sympathy for me is wasted. Empathy for me is misplaced. Some people figured it out the hard way when they knew me, others are figuring it out now by trying to know me, and the rest of you can take my word for it.

 

[The Morningstar]

I would say I am in the category of people who say "questionable things" as you put it, lol.
That's by my own definition, though, and possibly not by yours.

And hey, I recognize that pfp. Katseye just got recommended to me a month or so ago, and Gnarly is a real earworm!

My wish for you is that you do not allow that empathy to weigh on you too much. Your heart is in the right place, but in the end, we'll all make it out of here the same way. Please, from one empath to another, take care of yourself first and foremost. <3

 

[fallendevil]

I get what you're saying, but sometimes people are just bad. I've created and continue to create my own problems. Sympathy for me is wasted. Empathy for me is misplaced. Some people figured it out the hard way when they knew me, others are figuring it out now by trying to know me, and the rest of you can take my word for it.

Im aware of that, hence why I said most of you.

 

[wondering&wandering]

Im aware of that, hence why I said most of you.

Ah, must have missed that, lol. Thanks.

 

[fallendevil]

I would say I am in the category of people who say "questionable things" as you put it, lol.
That's by my own definition, though, and possibly not by yours.

And hey, I recognize that pfp. Katseye just got recommended to me a month or so ago, and Gnarly is a real earworm!

My wish for you is that you do not allow that empathy to weigh on you too much. Your heart is in the right place, but in the end, we'll all make it out of here the same way. Please, from one empath to another, take care of yourself first and foremost. <3

I love them all so much, they're one of my top idol groups at the moment and their concept is perfect. I also really like Adela's solo work as well.

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

I get what you're saying, but sometimes people are just bad. I've created and continue to create my own problems. Sympathy for me is wasted. Empathy for me is misplaced. Some people figured it out the hard way when they knew me, others are figuring it out now by trying to know me, and the rest of you can take my word for it.

You've been very kind to me. I know it doesn't mean much but I don't think you are a bad person. I hesitated to write because I know it feels bad to have someone who doesn't know much of anything comment, but I thought it would hurt more if no one here denied what you are saying. I think you are very kind, and in my reality you have been, so that is how I will always see it.

 

[The Morningstar]

I love them all so much, they're one of my top idol groups at the moment and their concept is perfect. I also really like Adela's solo work as well.

I don't know a lot about them, but I like that they are branding themselves as "international" since their members have a variety of ethnic backgrounds and nationalities. And that they won't be pigeonholed into being called K-pop or J-pop or whatever. Helps to give them their unique sound, I'd say.

 

[PlasticLife]

This is a random vent, and I'm probably making a broad generalization and I know that people are presenting themselves differently than they are on other places on the net or in real life (I'm actually a shit person who's bitter and negative most of the time, this forum is the only place where I've allowed myself to be vulnerable and I'm ashamed of the person I've become so deeply), and there are a lot of weird people on this forum who do and say questionable things, but I just want to say

There is a good chunk of you who I hurt for so badly, I mean obviously I'm not going to pretend that I'm going to be there for you or that I can help your pain in anyway as that's impossible and selfish since I haven't faced the burdens and pains that you deal with in your lives, but all of you guys seem like genuinely sweet people who were born in the wrong place at the wrong time, and I sincerely wish that things turned out differently for you and that you got to live the fairytale lives you deserve with the healthiest amount of conflict available.

I just hope you all know that a lot of your pain wasn't your fault. Maybe accountability is needed for certain things, but most of you guys never asked to spawn into environments with unsolved systematic issues from the adults who failed to protect and guide you from it, causing you to feel lost and alienated from the world as an adult.

I hope that one day you could look to the clouds in the grassiest field available free of any burdens or hate inside of you, regardless of which path you decide to take.

Thanks, but I deserve it really.

 

[ElTopo]

This is a random vent, and I'm probably making a broad generalization and I know that people are presenting themselves differently than they are on other places on the net or in real life (I'm actually a shit person who's bitter and negative most of the time, this forum is the only place where I've allowed myself to be vulnerable and I'm ashamed of the person I've become so deeply), and there are a lot of weird people on this forum who do and say questionable things, but I just want to say

There is a good chunk of you who I hurt for so badly, I mean obviously I'm not going to pretend that I'm going to be there for you or that I can help your pain in anyway as that's impossible and selfish since I haven't faced the burdens and pains that you deal with in your lives, but all of you guys seem like genuinely sweet people who were born in the wrong place at the wrong time, and I sincerely wish that things turned out differently for you and that you got to live the fairytale lives you deserve with the healthiest amount of conflict available.

I just hope you all know that a lot of your pain wasn't your fault. Maybe accountability is needed for certain things, but most of you guys never asked to spawn into environments with unsolved systematic issues from the adults who failed to protect and guide you from it, causing you to feel lost and alienated from the world as an adult.

I hope that one day you could look to the clouds in the grassiest field available free of any burdens or hate inside of you, regardless of which path you decide to take.

I think you should feel proud about being able to feel this empathetic towards others even in your own situation (or just in today's world even), I think it's rare to see.

I don't know if I deserve my struggles or not, or even if my feelings are worthy or not, I ask that myself a lot, I think it's very personal and there's no real answer. Whatever the case every person deserves for their experience to be held as most valuable, even if they made wrong choices.