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crimson blue

My demons haunt me
Sep 29, 2022
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psp3000

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
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yep I relate to this a lot

mostly because people have always: used me, lied to me, or disappointed me, or abandoned me

but also I blame myself because I am gullible and naive and too trusting at times out of desperation for friendship or any type of human connection at all
 
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yaldabaoth

yaldabaoth

she/they
Jun 29, 2023
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yeah i really relate to the title and also what psp said. i have bpd so being betrayed and/or abandoned scars me considerably worse than most ppl. i don't have many friends and the few ones i do have are long distance. i can't really imagine what its like to have a good supportive group of friends or family.
 
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pole

Global Mod
Sep 18, 2018
1,378
had to learn the hard way to keep people close but at a distance at the same time. it just isn't worth it.

i made peace with this by accepting to be alone. this involved deleting all socials, cutting everyone off, and staying to myself. i don't have the energy or care to deal with people.

been 4 years, and i can't put into words just how peaceful it's been.

to not have to worry about others and the baggage that comes with them that you have to eventually deal with? i'm good.
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
Absolutely! I've been fucked so many times (and not enjoyed any of them)!!! I trust no one any more. I don't care who it is I have absolutely no trust left. Sad really sad.
 
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HoleintheDark

HoleintheDark

Writhing with the worms
Jul 12, 2023
34
People are incredibly manipulative. They'll say and do anything of it means you'll do what they want. Compliments, encouragement, even words of comfort are all total lies that not even they believe. And I'm done being so gullible.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
7,810
Yes. I try not to rely on anyone completely. Not even family. Less disappointment that way. It's sad though- and lonely. You can't really build proper relationships without trust. It's sad to feel alone when you feel like you had the potential to have deep connections but somehow- they just don't feel worth the risk now.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,806
I personally don't believe that other people can be trusted and relied on at all, humans just very often create even more suffering.
 
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_Alfarooq_

_Alfarooq_

Useless bastard almost making the decision to CTB.
Jul 24, 2023
291
I relate. I don't have anyone who I can call friends. Everyone that I know is evil and selfish.
 
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StolenLife

StolenLife

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Sep 19, 2022
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Bullying and abuse in my early years taught me not to trust people, so I relate. When I was young people pretended to be my friends only to betray me, and they used me only when it was convenient for them, and the rest of time they treated me like trash. I don't feel comfortable around other people and I never will. I'd rather be lonely than hurt.
 
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Chara

Chara

Severe pain? But no gain.
Jul 22, 2023
133
Yes. For some of us, we will never be safe ever no matter where we are or who we're with. Trust only gets you hurt.
 
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Sweet Tart

Sweet Tart

Arcanist
May 10, 2023
453
I'm extremely cautious but sometimes I'm confronted with the fact that I can also be pretty gullible

I trust my best friend deeply but still cannot share with them the feelings I share here.
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Misfit
Dec 15, 2021
1,760
Yes, especially since everything is based on opportunism and dividends. We are products and numbers. It's nice to meet people but it's complicated create a bond beyond something shallow. A good family is the best you can have.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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I don't trust anyone. I've been screwed over too many times. Probably one of the reasons I never made any friends in life.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
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Same, I don't trust people. All they've done is betray me…
Bullying and abuse in my early years taught me not to trust people, so I relate. When I was young people pretended to be my friends only to betray me, and they used me only when it was convenient for them, and the rest of time they treated me like trash. I don't feel comfortable around other people and I never will. I'd rather be lonely than hurt.
I know you're not on here anymore, but my thoughts exactly. This is literally what happened to me as well
 
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