Discussion mom would be sad.

[jablko22]

Hey!
Does anyone have the same issue? My only reason to live is fact that death would hurt my family. They really care about me, but I hate them for fact they brought me here.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

Sometimes you reach a point where even your family love aint enough for you to keep going on.

 

[jablko22]

Sometimes you reach a point where even your family love aint enough for you to keep going on.

I mean they care. When they found out I'm suicidal took my to pscyhiatrist. But I can't live only because possible harm to them. Help?

 

[Nem]

Sorry to hear, feel the same way. A friend and parents have literally stopped me from ending things but at a certain point I think even that barrier becomes broken
Peace/hugs

 

[Squiddy]

Yup and my fear of a potential hell. Otherwise, I'd be dead

 

[jablko22]

Sorry to hear, feel the same way. A friend and parents have literally stopped me from ending things but at a certain point I think even that barrier becomes broken
Peace/hugs

How did u manage to suicide with thought someone would be hurt till end of his life? This person would cry every night. Thinking why? Isn't it sth hard to do while experiencing those kind of thoughts?

Yup and my fear of a potential hell. Otherwise, I'd be dead

I bet there aren't afterlife. U cant be punished for sth u were more capable to do because you were born like that. Example, murderer had shitty childhood but he murdered and now suffers forever. God sent him into word like that. And don't u think it's bad to punish someone for whole eternity for doing sth "bad" (it's objective) temporarily?

 

[Painless_end]

Sometimes you reach a point where even your family love aint enough for you to keep going on.

Exactly

 

[Nem]

How did u manage to suicide with thought someone would be hurt till end of his life? This person would cry every night. Thinking why? Isn't it sth hard to do while experiencing those kind of thoughts?

I don't know, a while back I was just determined to end things and each time I thought that my friend would be devastated and either they or my parents would phone me right at the moment I was about to do it. its like they knew something was going on but things are getting so bad right now I am just beside myself and it's really sad
Peace/hugs

 

[jablko22]

Exactly

I would always have this in mind... I can't get rid of it.

I don't know, a while back I was just determined to end things and each time I thought that my friend would be devastated and either they or my parents would phone me right at the moment I was about to do it. its like they knew something was going on but things are getting so bad right now I am just beside myself and it's really sad
Peace/hugs

May I ask what's so bad that u want to CTB. I won't hold you, just curious

 

[Nolye]

Hey!
Does anyone have the same issue? My only reason to live is fact that death would hurt my family. They really care about me, but I hate them for fact they brought me here.

I have the exact same problem, but what @NothingElseMatters said is true. Love can keep you here for so long, but after a while you just can't keep going. When I was a teenager, I hated my parents for bringing me here, but growing up I realized they meant well and genuinely wanted me to have an awesome life. Can't really despise them for that.

 

[jablko22]

I have the exact same problem, but what @NothingElseMatters said is true. Love can keep you here for so long, but after a while you just can't keep going. When I was a teenager, I hated my parents for bringing me here, but growing up I realized they meant well and genuinely wanted me to have an awesome life. Can't really despise them for that.

I know that as well. But I can't be like them. Hurt me so I hurt them. Although I need death...

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I know that people close to me will never truly come to terms with how ill in the head I am because they've been indoctrinated with Pro life bullshit. They'd never truly be able to put my best wishes (death) as a plausible solution.

 

[jablko22]

I know that people close to me will never truly come to terms with how ill in the head I am because they've been indoctrinated with Pro life bullshit. They'd never truly be able to put my best wishes (death) as a plausible solution.

Yes. I feel you