Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 2,565
When she brings up something about the future, like my future job, where I want to work, where will I study etc... i mostly answer with something along the lines of: oh, I won't be here anyways, idk I'll be gone or something. And she just brushes it off and thinks I'll change my mind or that I'll grow up or whatever. I talked to her about antinatalism, she knows I'm depressed/GAD, I even straight up told her that I want to kill my self a few times and nothing. Like deep down I know they would b sad if I died, especially my dad. But like can you care a bit more other then tell me: go outside and do something blah blah blah. No mom, the sun is not gonna help me. Like I really wish i could see her reaction after I "suddenly" ctb. I wish she actually tried to understand me