Missed an opportunity to end my life

[Nothingtoadd]

I planned to end life one and a half month back it was a golden opportunity to make my death look like an accident.I was not with parents at that time, staying outside my plan was to to go sea for a bath as I don't know swimming drowning should have happened. At that time I decided to visit mom as she had some health issues, Now my problems multiplied i have both financial and mental issues, now I'm finding it hard to take a decision looking at old mom's face.

 

[Zzzzz]

May you find peace in some way. I had an opportunity for ctb a few years back. It's quite a regret I have not doing it then.

 

[Nothingtoadd]

May you find peace in some way. I had an opportunity for ctb a few years back. It's quite a regret I have not doing it then.

Me too faced many incidents through which accidental death were possible. Now I'm thinking returning to house was a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Drowning sounds like such a difficult and painful method. I wish that it was easier to ctb that way. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens. I'm sorry that life has driven you to this point.

 

[Nothingtoadd]

Drowning sounds like such a difficult and painful method. I wish that it was easier to ctb that way. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens. I'm sorry that life has driven you to this point.

I wanted to make my death look like an accident so I decided to choose drowning as it is one of the effective way.My sufferings are not going to end never enjoyed life even when I were in a better position

 

[Zzzzz]

I wanted to make my death look like an accident so I decided to choose drowning as it is one of the effective way.My sufferings are not going to end never enjoyed life even when I were in a better position

It could be seen potentially as an accident, especially if someone drinks alcohol first. Or so I have read ....apparently true stories of accidental drowning involving alcohol.

 

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It could be seen potentially as an accident, especially if someone drinks alcohol first. Or so I have read ....apparently true stories of accidental drowning involving alcohol.

Read many stories about accidental drowning involving alcohol, I won't use alcohol if there are chances of retrieving my body, I don't want people accusing and making fun of me for doing stupid things after my death(as if it matters)

 

[whatstheporpoise15]

I planned to end life one and a half month back it was a golden opportunity to make my death look like an accident.I was not with parents at that time, staying outside my plan was to to go sea for a bath as I don't know swimming drowning should have happened. At that time I decided to visit mom as she had some health issues, Now my problems multiplied i have both financial and mental issues, now I'm finding it hard to take a decision looking at old mom's face.

I get how you feel. I had an opportunity to jump last month but I fucking hate heights and had a panic attack looking down. The option is still there (it's the roof of a relative's building) but I don't know if I'll ever gain the courage.