Venting Miserable

[BlackInkPen]

Getting back into smoking to cope with stress, thinking about just spending my savings as it just seems pointless to try for any future at this point, Im tired all the time but it's getting increasingly hard to sleep, my body feels against me a majority of the time. I don't see myself getting a better job or getting a place I can call my own or feeling less lonely or have any control over my life. I don't see why the only person I have keeps me around and it just feels like a self reason than for me. Idk just need to get this out, Im tired