Venting Might possibly ctb before new years.

[Deleted member 23774]

I'm not sure if I can wait until the second week of next month to ctb. I think that I'm going to catch the ride on Wed, I was going to go to my friend's for new years, but I don't want to be alive next year at all. I just can't handle this deep pain and anguish anymore. I don't know what will happen after I pass, but it's got to be better than what's going on now. I give up and I have no life left, I'm not even surviving and I'm just here waiting until the day that I don't wake up.

I really appreciate this group and I appreciate all of you because I can talk about what is going on without judgement and having people just minimize what I'm going through. I might post a goodbye thread, but I'm really not sure, it might be better than doing it alone. Thank you all for your support.

 

[botanormal]

I'm really sorry things have reached this point for you, but your feelings are completely understandable. It sounds like you've really been going through a lot of pain, and you shouldn't be forced to put up with that, if it's not what you want to do. Whatever you decide, I wish you the absolute best of luck. If you end up posting a goodbye thread, I hope you will receive the comfort and support you deserve. This community is very caring, and I'm really glad you feel comfortable opening up here, because everybody deserves a safe place to open up. If you ever need to talk, we're all here for you, okay? I hope you're able to find some peace, whatever you decide to do.