Might CTB today

[ladyofsorrows]

I'm really nervous about this. Mostly because I'm unsure of my method. But I really wanna go. There are no words to describe just how much I hate being alive in this body. I hate being ugly and the way people treat me because of it.

My method: I'd take a bunch of bromazepam and hydroxyzine/atarax and drink a bunch of whiskey. Then, once I start feeling like I'm about to pass out, I'd place a few plastic bags over my face and secure them with hair ties and rubber bands.

I also considered combining this with partial hanging so that I pass out faster, but I don't know if that'll even be necessary.

I know plastic bag suffocation feels like shit. I've tried it before sober and it felt awful. But maybe benzos and all the other stuff will help curb that awful air hunger panic that makes you wanna rip the bag/s off.

I really hope this works out. God I'm so nervous lol. I feel like I won't be able to do it today. I'll have like three hours of alone time only which sucks. I'd feel less nervous if I knew I had the whole day to CTB. If I wasn't a broke socially anxious idiot, I'd just book a hotel room and do it there.

 

[Chung Myung]

I'm really nervous about this. Mostly because I'm unsure of my method. But I really wanna go. There are no words to describe just how much I hate being alive in this body. I hate being ugly and the way people treat me because of it.

My method: I'd take a bunch of bromazepam and hydroxyzine/atarax and drink a bunch of whiskey. Then, once I start feeling like I'm about to pass out, I'd place a few plastic bags over my face and secure them with hair ties and rubber bands.

I also considered combining this with partial hanging so that I pass out faster, but I don't know if that'll even be necessary.

I know plastic bag suffocation feels like shit. I've tried it before sober and it felt awful. But maybe benzos and all the other stuff will help curb that awful air hunger panic that makes you wanna rip the bag/s off.

I really hope this works out. God I'm so nervous lol. I feel like I won't be able to do it today. I'll have like three hours of alone time only which sucks. I'd feel less nervous if I knew I had the whole day to CTB. If I wasn't a broke socially anxious idiot, I'd just book a hotel room and do it there.

or hear me out blast pharma that will improve your looks

You are already planning on ending it so what do u have to lose? nothing but you have all to gain

 

[ladyofsorrows]

or hear me out blast pharma that will improve your looks

You are already planning on ending it so what do u have to lose? nothing but you have all to gain

My face is genuinely irreparably ugly. Plus, I'm broke. And I'm only getting older. I never got to be a normal, pretty, young girl so idc about potentially getting slightly better looking later in life. I missed out on crucial experiences.

Also I personally hate the idea of improving your looks through surgery. I want to be naturally attractive. I feel like I'm lying to people just by wearing makeup, so I can't even imagine how I'd feel if I got surgery. Surgery can only get you so far and it'd probably just make me a 5 anyway.

 

[Chung Myung]

My face is genuinely irreparably ugly. Plus, I'm broke. And I'm only getting older. I never got to be a normal, pretty, young girl so idc about potentially getting slightly better looking later in life. I missed out on crucial experiences.

Okay you're a girl so it's doesn't matter to me anymore proceed as you would

Lone method lol

 

[ladyofsorrows]

Okay you're a girl so it's doesn't matter to me anymore proceed as you would

Lone method lol

Lmao what?

>username contains the word lady
>surprised that user is a girl
>???

 

[ladyofsorrows]

I said your situation no longer matters to me since ur a foid

do what u will

Thank you!

 

[Chung Myung]

Lmao what?

>username contains the word lady
>surprised that user is a girl
>???

It's very late I wasn't reading your user

I can see the mistake on my part and understand my wrong

Now like I said previously do whatever you like

 

[ladyofsorrows]

It's very late I wasn't reading your user

I can see the mistake on my part and understand my wrong

Now like I said previously do whatever you like

I was actually just curious what you meant by lone method.

 

[Chung Myung]

I was actually just curious what you meant by lone method.

Well since you're going to end it either way might as well get a lone through any means and spend it on pharma and possible surgeries

might as well enjoy ur last moments jfl

 

[ladyofsorrows]

Well since you're going to end it either way might as well get a lone through any means and spend it on pharma and possible surgeries

might as well enjoy ur last moments jfl

Ohh you mean loan. I've thought abt doing that but it just isn't worth it in my case. I have flaws that can't even be fixed through surgery.

 

[Chung Myung]

Ohh you mean loan.

Oops I did misspell

I have severe brain fog at the moment from lack of sleep

 

[ladyofsorrows]

Oops I did misspell

I have severe brain fog at the moment from lack of sleep

Real

 

[Terrible_Life]

Okay you're a girl so it's doesn't matter to me anymore proceed as you would

Lone method lol

So because she is female you said it doesn't matter to you any more? Are you stupid? Did your mother hurt you as a child and now all woman are evil in your weirdo mind ?

 

[darksouls]

I'm really nervous about this. Mostly because I'm unsure of my method. But I really wanna go. There are no words to describe just how much I hate being alive in this body. I hate being ugly and the way people treat me because of it.

My method: I'd take a bunch of bromazepam and hydroxyzine/atarax and drink a bunch of whiskey. Then, once I start feeling like I'm about to pass out, I'd place a few plastic bags over my face and secure them with hair ties and rubber bands.

I also considered combining this with partial hanging so that I pass out faster, but I don't know if that'll even be necessary.

I know plastic bag suffocation feels like shit. I've tried it before sober and it felt awful. But maybe benzos and all the other stuff will help curb that awful air hunger panic that makes you wanna rip the bag/s off.

I really hope this works out. God I'm so nervous lol. I feel like I won't be able to do it today. I'll have like three hours of alone time only which sucks. I'd feel less nervous if I knew I had the whole day to CTB. If I wasn't a broke socially anxious idiot, I'd just book a hotel room and do it there.

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[ladyofsorrows]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

Thank you very much