Might be abe to kill myself soon, but got filed a missing report from carers.

[Always-in-trouble]

I am on the way to Eastbourne, Beachy head and planning to jump there. Don't know how to feel really. Carers have filed a missing report to the police and now that spurns me heavily to it. At the same time, I feel skittish and might back out because of this, especially if they find me before there. Should have hidden my history or they would have not known. In any case, if you do hear back from me, it's probably those two thing, SI or patrols that stopped me. If you do not, thank you to everyone here. I really liked this community. If I weren't so regretful and self-hating, I would probably stay a little longer

 

[sanctionedusage]

i'll say goodbye now in case i don't hear again from you. i hope whatever you choose isn't a hassle or burdensome on you. we'll miss you! whether that's only for a few weeks or forever.

 

[Always-in-trouble]

i'll say goodbye now in case i don't hear again from you. i hope whatever you choose isn't a hassle or burdensome on you. we'll miss you! whether that's only for a few weeks or forever.

Thank you. I wonder how my family and my carers would react to this, whether alive or dead. I have not been a good son at all and achieved nothing of note. I am surprised they don't hate me or they don't realise my criminal-like habits or perversions. Doing shit like stealing laptops to fuel my porn addiction and they still don't. I can never understand. (I might get banned for this, probably for the best)