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Meatballhead

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Feb 21, 2024
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I'm ready to get this over with asap. All I need is a gun .
 
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eupdplishlp

eupdplishlp

Please share with me what you are bearing
Jul 15, 2025
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may I ask why?
 
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stoiccactus

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Mar 24, 2022
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There's no shortage of guns in the Midwest!
 
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FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find freedom from suffering, I really understand just wanting to be gone, all I want is to never exist ever again.
 
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Meatballhead

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Feb 21, 2024
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There's no shortage of guns in the Midwest!
Yet I can't literally get my hands on one. I'm afraid to steal one and survive the theft to deal with cops and the mental health joke. It doesn't make any sense that it's been so difficult to get one but I know I'd be caught if I tried to lift one . I never tried to but still.
I hope you find freedom from suffering, I really understand just wanting to be gone, all I want is to never exist ever again.
This is dragging out like crazy. Theres soany ways but it never lines up right for me. Like now I'm sober and broke but there's trains to die under everywhere. Disgusting.
There's no shortage of guns in the Midwest!
Seriously ,how do I get one?
 
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iwashere

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Jun 2, 2025
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I know you can buy them at dicks sporting goods or really any shooting range near you. i don't know what state in the midwest you're at, but i live in the midwest as well and luckily it's pretty easy to get one over here. you can look up local gun shows near you and you typically just give them cash and they give you the gun (so i've heard.) i am also in need of a gun i just don't have the $$$ but i already know of about 5 places i can go to when i do finally get the funds
Theres soany ways but it never lines up right for me. Like now I'm sober and broke but there's trains to die under everywhere. Disgusting.
oof i relate to this real hard. gun is honestly the only method that really speaks to me. if you have any hick friends you could probably steal one from them if you know they'd never suspect you took it. i know i've considered taking a friends gun (and one time the opportunity literally presented itself) and i don't know why but i was like glued to the couch and i got too scared to get up and grab it. everyday i regret not grabbing it
 
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Meatballhead

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Feb 21, 2024
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I know you can buy them at dicks sporting goods or really any shooting range near you. i don't know what state in the midwest you're at, but i live in the midwest as well and luckily it's pretty easy to get one over here. you can look up local gun shows near you and you typically just give them cash and they give you the gun (so i've heard.) i am also in need of a gun i just don't have the $$$ but i already know of about 5 places i can go to when i do finally get the funds

oof i relate to this real hard. gun is honestly the only method that really speaks to me. if you have any hick friends you could probably steal one from them if you know they'd never suspect you took it. i know i've considered taking a friends gun (and one time the opportunity literally presented itself) and i don't know why but i was like glued to the couch and i got too scared to get up and grab it. everyday i regret not grabbing it
I've been around plenty but it's like they have a sixth sense. I can try but it just feels like they'd immediately notice. I'd have to do it in front of them practically. So I'm stuck being alive for nothing. I know I should just get it over with becasue it'll never be the perfect time to die. Only winning move is to never be born. It's like you have to be dramatic and sloppy without standards in death just like life. So disgusting people have the audacity to force people to live. They gaslight like they aren't but they are. They're forcing it. They're manipulative. There's no reason why I shouldn't be able to casually get a gun like so many others. Or get drunk and crawl on some train tracks. They set this crap up. They're really good at being full of it. So forced coexistence continues . The joke must go on .
 
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knickknack81

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Apr 28, 2025
162
I hear ya. I live in one of the toughest states in the country when it comes to gun laws. The amount of hoops you have to jump through just to be able to purchase a gun is extremely difficult and time consuming. If you know people you may be able to get it through the black market or know someone at a gun show that can not-so legally sell you a gun. But you need to be careful. Also stealing a friends gun to CTB will cause a lot of problems for that friend. Guns have serial numbers and easy to trace back to someone so when the authorities are investigating this, they will be able to trace back where the gun came from and it can be a huge issue for said friend.
 
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Meatballhead

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Feb 21, 2024
35
I hear ya. I live in one of the toughest states in the country when it comes to gun laws. The amount of hoops you have to jump through just to be able to purchase a gun is extremely difficult and time consuming. If you know people you may be able to get it through the black market or know someone at a gun show that can not-so legally sell you a gun. But you need to be careful. Also stealing a friends gun to CTB will cause a lot of problems for that friend. Guns have serial numbers and easy to trace back to someone so when the authorities are investigating this, they will be able to trace back where the gun came from and it can be a huge issue for said friend.
I know I won't care when I'm dead. It's be easy for said friend to get clear as I'm a hobo/criminal anyways. So theyd just say I was a bad person shady and be in the clear. Still it's like things never align for me to pull it off . It's embarassing and I feel guilty for not just doing it already.
 

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