Metoclopramide arrived! (UK)

[Disco Biscuit]

I was a bit surprised at how easy this was to buy in the end. I was overthinking it - I had scoured the dark web and had no luck there and the online Indian pharmacy I've used for other items in the past has been out of stock for ages. Then someone mentioned you can buy it from an auction site. It took five days to arrive from Spain.

Waiting on the SN from Russia now. I'm starting to believe this could really happen!

 

[Deleted member 22624]

I'm glad it was easy, one less thing to worry about. I noticed it available in a Canadian online pharmacy, if I'm correct it should be easy to buy... I'm just planning, haven't tried to buy anything yet, I'm hesitantly giving life another go so don't want stuff knocking around yet for various reasons

 

[Disco Biscuit]

I'm glad it was easy, one less thing to worry about. I noticed it available in a Canadian online pharmacy, if I'm correct it should be easy to buy... I'm just planning, haven't tried to buy anything yet, I'm hesitantly giving life another go so don't want stuff knocking around yet for various reasons

Make the best of giving life another go! I had the best time over the summer going on solo adventures without a care in the world. I think it was so enjoyable because I wasn't anxious or worried about the future anymore. It was the freest and happiest I've felt in a long time. I chatted to strangers on trains, camped outside, and cycled over 500 miles altogether. It was amazing.

But now it's nearly winter and I still don't have any friends or family or anything to actually live for. I know this is for the best but I'm very happy I had a last blast! :-)

Having the choice whether to stay or go is very empowering in itself. You can use that feeling of empowerment to try again, knowing you're not trapped here if it doesn't go well.

 

[Deleted member 22624]

Yeh I feel a fair bit less depressed with options - not nearly enough to do much more than shopping or whatnot sadly but it's a start. Unfortunately my partner now knows about SS's reputation so there's pressure for me to stop coming here. This is still the best I've felt in quite some time, even if SN might not be the best way to go. I'm glad you've felt some liberation too, it's the feeling that has removed all traces of fear of death for me. Now it's just the pain of it, and pain for those I leave behind

 

[Blurred_Reality]

@NewOrder Please can you DM me?

 

[Disco Biscuit]

Yeh I feel a fair bit less depressed with options - not nearly enough to do much more than shopping or whatnot sadly but it's a start. Unfortunately my partner now knows about SS's reputation so there's pressure for me to stop coming here. This is still the best I've felt in quite some time, even if SN might not be the best way to go. I'm glad you've felt some liberation too, it's the feeling that has removed all traces of fear of death for me. Now it's just the pain of it, and pain for those I leave behind

I'm glad you're feeling better than you were. Try and lean into that feeling for a while. It's just baby steps and having suicide as an option at least gives you something to step away from. It's just an option that exists after being explored and evaluated.

It must be really tough having a partner that cares about you deeply. But it's good that how you feel isn't a secret you're holding onto alone. That someone else knows and hopefully understands?

 

[Hollydeathripper]

I was a bit surprised at how easy this was to buy in the end. I was overthinking it - I had scoured the dark web and had no luck there and the online Indian pharmacy I've used for other items in the past has been out of stock for ages. Then someone mentioned you can buy it from an auction site. It took five days to arrive from Spain.

Waiting on the SN from Russia now. I'm starting to believe this could really happen!

how you get that i can barely find anything agh
im tired of life

 

[Deleted member 22624]

I'm glad you're feeling better than you were. Try and lean into that feeling for a while. It's just baby steps and having suicide as an option at least gives you something to step away from. It's just an option that exists after being explored and evaluated.

It must be really tough having a partner that cares about you deeply. But it's good that how you feel isn't a secret you're holding onto alone. That someone else knows and hopefully understands?

I don't deserve her. She doesn't know how to help me any more, all I can do is keep trying more medication and hoping for some effect without bad side effects, but I've been doing this for 25 years now. I don't know why she's still with me, but I'm sticking around because I owe it to her, and at the moment it's the only good reason. She's a beautiful soul but I can't find peace in much, she's wasted on me and I hate myself for bringing her into my life

 

[Disco Biscuit]

I don't deserve her. She doesn't know how to help me any more, all I can do is keep trying more medication and hoping for some effect without bad side effects, but I've been doing this for 25 years now. I don't know why she's still with me, but I'm sticking around because I owe it to her, and at the moment it's the only good reason. She's a beautiful soul but I can't find peace in much, she's wasted on me and I hate myself for bringing her into my life

She sounds like a very special person. But she must think the same about you or she wouldn't be with you. It's funny how we can't see the great qualities in ourselves that are really obvious to other people.

 

[NoSuprises]

I was a bit surprised at how easy this was to buy in the end. I was overthinking it - I had scoured the dark web and had no luck there and the online Indian pharmacy I've used for other items in the past has been out of stock for ages. Then someone mentioned you can buy it from an auction site. It took five days to arrive from Spain.

Waiting on the SN from Russia now. I'm starting to believe this could really happen!

What auction site did you find it? I can't see it on the obvious one. Can you message me please?

 

[Abir_london]

What does Metoclopramide do?

 

[TerminallyAlive]

What does Metoclopramide do?

Prevents vomiting.