I'm not in a position to access SN or anything that has to be bought online, so I can only really CTB with stuff I can find at home. But most of the methods I'm able to do have the possibility of failing and just leaving me paralysed or disabled or brain-dead. I tried to hang myself on Sunday evening but I chickened out when I remembered what could happen if I fail. It was the only thing that stopped me from doing it for real, right then and there. I don't have access to a gun, or drugs strong enough to do anything serious, and trains are unreliable, as are buildings near where I live, and cutting never works. I really can't see many options left.
My greatest fear is being kept alive against my will, especially if I've damaged myself in some way, e.g. become braindead from hanging, or paralysed from jumping. I NEED a method that will not only work for certain, but also will not permanently harm me if it somehow fails. So far I just haven't been able to find anything that matches this criteria, and can be done using household items. I'd also prefer for it to be relatively pain free, so no burnings or electrocutions either. Any advice?
My greatest fear is being kept alive against my will, especially if I've damaged myself in some way, e.g. become braindead from hanging, or paralysed from jumping. I NEED a method that will not only work for certain, but also will not permanently harm me if it somehow fails. So far I just haven't been able to find anything that matches this criteria, and can be done using household items. I'd also prefer for it to be relatively pain free, so no burnings or electrocutions either. Any advice?
