Merry Christmas / today

[Suicidebydeath]

Hello everyone!

I wish you a Merry Christmas!
If you don't celebrate, I wish you a great day instead!
Or as @Someone123 said, Happy Holidays or Special Saturday to everyone!
Sorry if from forever now you will be quoted as Someone said and also not sorry because I find it funny!

Love
SBD


Decided against making a click-baity title before posting, it might be hard enough for some when it is what it is! :)

 

[Before26]

Merry Christmas to you and to all the beautiful people on SS… may today be kind to us all

B x

 

[FuneralCry]

For me Christmas is just another day of suffering. I do not do anything to celebrate it. I am so tired of life. The best present for me would be eternal sleep but it is unlikely I will get it. I wish you the best.

 

[Before26]

For me Christmas is just another day of suffering. I do not do anything to celebrate it. I am so tired of life. The best present for me would be eternal sleep but it is unlikely I will get it. I wish you the best.

I don't know your situation friend but I'm in a similar position of doing nothing today and being alone. Maybe to ease the weight of today, do one very small thing to treat yourself whatever that may be. I don't wish you to suffer when you spread so much love on this site possibly without even realising it.

 

[Rayzieka]

Merry christmas

 

[chocolatebar]

Wish you all a great day as well. A day better than mine, at least

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I'm alone and have just been napping today.

 

[Before26]

I'm alone and have just been napping today.

I hope you have good naps. Being alone sucks but I'm glad I have this site for company today.

 

[Callie Arcale]

I only had one panic attack today, so I guess this day is as merry as they come in my world…

Christmas this year for me is laying in bed, in semi-darkness. I light candles and I have a box of chocolates. Maybe I'll try to watch something on TV later.

I had a few really wonderful Christmases when I was young. Now the memory of what once was, cuts like a knife. It's funny how fast life passes and yet how slow. This moment right now, as I write this, feels like an eternity. But those Christmases long ago passed away like the blink of an eye.

 

[Someone123]

Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays or Special Saturday to everyone!

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I only had one panic attack today, so I guess this day is as merry as they come in my world…

Christmas this year for me is laying in bed, in semi-darkness. I light candles and I have a box of chocolates. Maybe I'll try to watch something on TV later.

I had a few really wonderful Christmases when I was young. Now the memory of what once was, cuts like a knife. It's funny how fast life passes and yet how slow. This moment right now, as I write this, feels like an eternity. But those Christmases long ago passed away like the blink of an eye.

I feel the same. Candles and chocolate sounds lovely

 

[LONE WOLF.]

To all on SS, Myself and my Doggy wish you a peaceful Xmàs! Wuffs are sent out to Everyone :-)

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I celebrate winter solstice, and really the days are getting longer now.

 

[Sister of the Moon]

I sincerely hope everyone has a wonderful day and a great festive season, if you like that sort of thing. I know so many struggle with this time of year.
Personally I have cried most of the day. I'm in a toxic situation I don't know how to fix, and I have been extremely sad and heartbroken today.
Blessings to you all, may your days be better.

 

[Callie Arcale]

I sincerely hope everyone has a wonderful day and a great festive season, if you like that sort of thing. I know so many struggle with this time of year.
Personally I have cried most of the day. I'm in a toxic situation I don't know how to fix, and I have been extremely sad and heartbroken today.
Blessings to you all, may your days be better.

I also cried all day. My eyelids are red, swollen and hurt a lot right now. I'd like to try and get some sleep but when I close my eyes, I get this burning sensation. I wish I could close my eyes forever.

May your days be better @Sad Eyes Again

 

[S like Siren]

And this other christmas is gone too...well I hope you all spent a Christmas without suicidal thoughts, at least quiet if not really happy ... for me every year is hard but now it's over ... hugs to everyone<3<3

 

[Circles]

I hate the holidays but I hope everyone can have a tolerable Christmas however much they can. May we sleep through this and pretend it's all a just a dream. Peace everyone.

 

[TheHatedOne]

happy saturday with fancy decorations, i slept throughout the whole day after I only slept 3-4 hours throughout the whole week and I don't regert anything.

 

[freeziepop98]

heya, merry christmas

 

[Idontmatter]

Merry Christmas- I'm actually forcing myself out to socialize. We are having dinner at my sister in-law house. I figured I might as well since this is going to be the last time some see me. I have less than 2 weeks now before ctb. Depression sucks when it takes so much effort to even want to get out of bed. This is going to be a long day.

 

[chocolatebar]

Wish you all a great day as well. A day better than mine, at least

Came here because I received a notification and realized a year has passed... one more year... 365 fewer grains of sand left. I can barely see sand in the upper part anymore.

 

[Pluto]

Was a different group of folks last year. Not all still with us.

 

[chocolatebar]

Was a different group of folks last year. Not all still with us.

I miss a lot of people...
May I ask you how you deal with that?

 

[Pluto]

I miss a lot of people...
May I ask you how you deal with that?

It's a normal part of life to lose some loved ones as time passes, though the process here happens in fast motion. It's complicated by bonding quite powerfully over shared trauma, yet sometimes not being sure what happens to people when they vanish. Sometimes somebody who we only knew peripherally is confirmed to pass away, so we are shielded from the loss by the lack of intimacy.

And, of course, in the spirit of the website, it is not desirable to see them continue to suffer against their will. TheHatedOne is very notable from this thread. I interacted with them a bit as they battled intense self-worth issues and AFAB gender dysphoria. I am happy they are no longer suffering like that and yet still I'm sort of in tears as I write this. The whole situation sucks.

In rare cases when we become aware of public death notices, grieving families and funeral arrangements (a young lady from Ireland, xlosthopex?, being one example), it hits very hard. In that particular case, she had had a failed attempt with N, and some people had excoriated her for it. Her next attempt did succeed, and the loss of a regular member is even sadder when some in our community treated her so poorly in her darkest hour.

Yet in other cases, people come and go so quietly that the lack of publicity is itself the tragedy. I learned one day that there was user from my area in regional Victoria (KQuotientQ?). I didn't immediately make any contact with her, but a matter of days later she posted that she was going to attempt using charcoal. With the information she shared on her final post, it turned out I had a lot in common with her and just maybe could have helped her with her situation. I'll never know, as she presumably succeeded with her attempt and her final thread quietly sunk into oblivion.

I realise I have not actually answered your question, because I don't think I have an answer. Many of us aren't really dealing with anything!

 

[chocolatebar]

It's a normal part of life to lose some loved ones as time passes, though the process here happens in fast motion. It's complicated by bonding quite powerfully over shared trauma, yet sometimes not being sure what happens to people when they vanish. Sometimes somebody who we only knew peripherally is confirmed to pass away, so we are shielded from the loss by the lack of intimacy. And, of course, in the spirit of the website, it is not desirable to see them continue to suffer against their will. TheHatedOne is very notable from this thread. I interacted with them a bit as they battled intense self-worth issues and AFAB gender dysphoria. I am happy they are no longer suffering like that and yet still I'm sort of in tears as I write this. The whole situation sucks. In rare cases when we become aware of public death notices, grieving families and funeral arrangements (a young lady from Ireland, xlosthopex?, being one example), it hits very hard. In that particular case, she had had a failed attempt with N, and some people had excoriated her for it. Her next attempt did succeed, and the loss of a regular member is even sadder when some in our community treated her so poorly in her darkest hour. Yet in other cases, people come and go so quietly that the lack of publicity is itself the tragedy. I learned one day that there was user from my area in regional Victoria (KQuotientQ?). I didn't immediately make any contact with her, but a matter of days later she posted that she was going to attempt using charcoal. With the information she shared on her final post, it turned out I had a lot in common with her and just maybe could have helped her with her situation. I'll never know, as she presumably succeeded with her attempt and her final thread quietly sunk into oblivion. I realise I have not actually answered your question, because I don't think I have an answer. Many of us aren't really dealing with anything!

you actually answered the question perfectly

there's probably no proper way to deal with it, we just suffer and carry the weight of our memories...

sometimes I feel like some people somewhat start avoiding me in here as soon as we start getting closer, but I think I can understand why. It's the fear of loss...