Mental illnesses and suicidal thoughts

[Taran]

I have mental illness bipolar and borderline...I haven't done anything wrong to others my whole life...have I done something wrong in the past life that I'm in this situation( I have turned into an atheist lately) why am I facing all these...I don't feel jealous if I see someone enjoying but feel sad because I'm not able to have fun....been facing from childhood I am 20 now....was about to become a doctor..but my mental illness destroyed that too...it destroyed my childhood ,my adulhood ,my career and all now from a medical student I became a lazy 20 year old with mental illnesses sleeping all day in my home with negetive and suicidal thoughts.....

 

[Forever or never]

Welcome in the club! I also have Borderline and major depression, laying in bed all day doing nothing but browing this forum, thinking about suicide and watching YouTube videos.
Let me guess, you also dont go out, meet friends etc.?

I actually went voluntary to psych ward 2 months ago. It was the best experience I had so far in the last 2 years! I felt better for the weeks after but I couldn't hold on to it long enough to really improve my life...
Maybee give it a shot?

 

[Jean Améry]

There is no evidence for the existence of reincarnation so I doubt the answer to your question is yes. Of course it's natural to seek explanations for rotten situations and things that happened to you beyond your control.

I'm somewhat familiar with the situation you describe: I too lost years of my life due to misery beyond my control. Still you're only 20 so it's not all lost, not yet. I know it's hard but try to take steps to improve your situation, however marginal the effect. Go for regular walks, try to read, talk to people, do things you used to enjoy... Above all try to find an educational program (doesn't need to be at a university) that will give you useful skills and even more importantly provide structure in your daily life which is clearly what you're missing.

Since you managed to become a med student you're obviously smart: even with the mental misery you're going through I'm sure you can still achieve things to be proud of. Do what you can: making the effort is by itself laudable regardless of the result.

The best of luck to you Taran.

 

[Taran]

Welcome in the club! I also have Borderline and major depression, laying in bed all day doing nothing but browing this forum, thinking about suicide and watching YouTube videos.
Let me guess, you also dont go out, meet friends etc.?

I actually went voluntary to psych ward 2 months ago. It was the best experience I had so far in the last 2 years! I felt better for the weeks after but I couldn't hold on to it long enough to really improve my life...
Maybee give it a shot?

Yeah...I became socially anxious person... anxiety hits me hard if I go out....but I on other hand feel I have friends and do stuff...but only wheny moods good I get that feeling....I know I can't cope up with people... people think it's an attitude problem cause I'm in my 20s and u need to hang out and stuff but my anxiety hits me when I meet people.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry to hear about your troubles. Are you treating your illness with therapy or medication? I hope everything turns out great for you.

 

[Taran]

There is no evidence for the existence of reincarnation so I doubt the answer to your question is yes. Of course it's natural to seek explanations for rotten situations and things that happened to you beyond your control.

I'm somewhat familiar with the situation you describe: I too lost years of my life due to misery beyond my control. Still you're only 20 so it's not all lost, not yet. I know it's hard but try to take steps to improve your situation, however marginal the effect. Go for regular walks, try to read, talk to people, do things you used to enjoy... Above all try to find an educational program (doesn't need to be at a university) that will give you useful skills and even more importantly provide structure in your daily life which is clearly what you're missing.

Since you managed to become a med student you're obviously smart: even with the mental misery you're going through I'm sure you can still achieve things to be proud of. Do what you can: making the effort is by itself laudable regardless of the result.

The best of luck to you Taran.

Thanks brother...but right now I'm completely miserable... whatever u told I tried for the past 2, 3 years thinking that the problem is I don't concentrate and stuff but after trying so long with no results I got diagnosed with mental illnesses...now I have an answer for why I am like this...I have given up on many things now...my existence is fault.

I am sorry to hear about your troubles. Are you treating your illness with therapy or medication? I hope everything turns out great for you.

Been to doctor..he has prescribed some meds...but they aren't effective..I'm trying to take a vacation....but not sure if that's going help..as it's not just some depression

 

[Yomyom]

Been to doctor..he has prescribed some meds...but they aren't effective..I'm trying to take a vacation....but not sure if that's going help..as it's not just some depression

Psychiatric drugs takes a lot of time to Affect on people, about a month or maybe more.
And also a doctor can't really take care of Mental Illness, it's not His specialty, it be better to try with Psychiatrist and psychologist.

 

[terry_a_davis]

The chance of becoming mentally ill can be increased by a variety of reasons such as environmental factors including (but not limited to) being abused/suffering trauma/severe stress or drug addiction, and genetic predisposition, but sometimes you can have none of those and just be really unlucky. There's zero evidence it's to do with previous lives.

 

[Taran]

Psychiatric drugs takes a lot of time to Affect on people, about a month or maybe more.
And also a doctor can't really take care of Mental Illness, it's not His specialty, it be better to try with Psychiatrist and psychologist.

Been using since 6 months

The chance of becoming mentally ill can be increased by a variety of reasons such as environmental factors like being abused/suffering trauma/severe stress or drug addiction, and genetic predisposition, but sometimes you can have none of those and just be really unlucky. There's zero evidence it's to do with previous lives.

Maybe I had all except drug abuse

 

[Yomyom]

Been using since 6 months

Have you try to change your medicine? You shouldn't take medicine in that amount of time without some Change for the better.
The world of psychiatric drugs is primarily about trial and error.
Wish you the best of luck

 

[Taran]

Have you try to change your medicine? You shouldn't take medicine in that amount of time without some Change for the better.
The world of psychiatric drugs is primarily about trial and error.
Wish you the best of luck

Yeah..done everything..and gave up

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry you're in a bad place right now. I wish you peace and comfort in whatever you decide to do.