Venting Memento mori

[Giovannino224]

I always wanted to lock myself in a room forever.
I hate to interact with people, I hate having relationships.
Relationships are hard to create and maintain.
You have to use your precious time by interacting with others and you have to put effort in what you do.
Most of the time relationships don't end well,
maybe the person you are friend with can just stop talking to you,
can start to hate you for something you did,
or can even die in the worst scenario.
Social relationships are hard to maintain and they can lead to a lot of suffer.
Of course there will be happy moments,
but they are nothing compared to the suffering you'll feel.

I worked really hard on my social relationships,
but they all ended up not in they way I wanted.
People started to hate me for absolutely no reason.
Someone took advantage of me,
probably because of my fragile personality.
Someone only lost interest in me, and stopped talking to me.

Is my personality really that bland?
I'm really that fragile?
Why do people avoid me?
I don't have the answers, and I don't need them.

I'm starting to care less and less about people and social interaction.
I don't go out much anymore, and I like it.
If I don't go out I don't feel any emotion,
I don't feel suffer, I don't feel sadness, I don't feel paranoia.
When I'm in my room I only feel peace,
I wish that it'll be like this forever, but it's impossible.

I want to lock myself in a room forever and never get out.
I want to die there.
I want none to know it.
I want people to forget me.
I want to be alone in peace.

That's what will happen when I'll die.
The sentence that reminds me of this is
Memento mori.

 

[R_N]

My title <3. I remember when I first saw this phrase, it made me feel weird. Simple but effective reminder of everyones mortality.

We all perish one day whether we like it or not. And before that we will have to accept losing things we get attached to. Even our own bodies decay during this time.