Medications against my will

[cvury]

I have diagnosed BPD and take many mood stabilizers, I take so many medications a whole 2 pills in morning and 5 at night. But it is against my will, even tho I am an adult my parents force me to take these medications or I will be kicked out. Though I feel like a shell of my own self. I am always loopy and staring off, unable to focus. I want to go cold turkey off everything and see how I feel. Is anyone else in a situation where they are forced to take meds and how do you deal with it? Will getting off of them make me have the courage to finally ctb

 

[Jisatsu]

I'm been forced to take medications and even started actually taking some of them on my own. For a time I was always having to be supervised when taking my medications because I'm a known "overdoser" . When it comes to being forced to take them by your parents , you honestly don't have a say until you are able to leave their care.

 

[AnEpilogue]

I used to be under watch for that stuff, they made me feel so dissociated that I couldn't do anything. But I just slowly stopped them, and my mother seemed to forget about it, or just looked the other way. Not so sure that would work for you- do your parents keep them locked up otherwise? The only thing I could think of is maybe replacing some with candy that looks really similar, but that could be risky if they find out.