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UnbearableLightness

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The hospital's record line closed at 4 today and now I'm left wondering if it was voluntary or involuntary. If voluntary I'm probably buying a firearm tomorrow. I think I remember verbally consenting but this was years ago so it's all hazy
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Why would that change your mind?
It wouldn't.
Can't buy one with an involuntary psych hold on your record. Yes, they check.
The hospital's record line closed at 4 today and now I'm left wondering if it was voluntary or involuntary. If voluntary I'm probably buying a firearm tomorrow. I think I remember verbally consenting but this was years ago so it's all hazy
If it was involuntary, do you have a second choice of method in mind?
 
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UnbearableLightness

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It wouldn't.
Can't buy one with an involuntary psych hold on your record. Yes, they check.

If it was involuntary, do you have a second choice of method in mind?
SN… feeling real dumb cause I have nitrate arriving tomorrow and was hoping to make a quick exit with that but I just ordered the real deal (shame it's gonna take forever to arrive). Last time I attempted was 2022 and it was a whole lot easier to just order some nitrite
Tbh I think I might prefer firearm. Over quicker that way. I know all I need to do is skip a dose of lithium and I'll get impulsive and crazy enough to do it.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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SN… feeling real dumb cause I have nitrate arriving tomorrow and was hoping to make a quick exit with that but I just ordered the real deal (shame it's gonna take forever to arrive). Last time I attempted was 2022 and it was a whole lot easier to just order some nitrite
Tbh I think I might prefer firearm. Over quicker that way. I know all I need to do is skip a dose of lithium and I'll get impulsive and crazy enough to do it.
Ok, well, maybe there are some final things you'd like to do in the meantime?
 
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Ok, well, maybe there are some final things you'd like to do in the meantime?
lol my anhedonia has been crazy. If there were things I wanted to do I wouldn't be trying to ctb. I have been eating a bunch of processed food I usually avoided when I thought I was going to live so I guess there's that. But it's hard to even listen to music or play with this fashion app I like because of the intensity of the depression.

You might've seen this in some other threads but I'm bipolar and that shits incurable. I'm a burden on my family and dirt broke, can't work. My ideal day rn is just to lie undisturbed in bed on my phone with extra benzos.
Firearm is pretty scary though ngl. My ideal way to go out would be peaceful sleep so it's pretty far from that.
 

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