Venting Me and my ego

[Saponification]

"You're unremarkable. You don't deserve anything. It's not that deep. Get over it."—I tell myself. Easier said than done.

My character traits make me pathetic at handling life's bullshit.. A low self-esteem where I don't feel good enough, a big ego where I think I should be better than everyone or I should get what I want, and a high sensitivity to failure and rejection.

I love wallowing in self-pity and get off on being miserable. "Whaaah whaaah, the world is so unfair and I deserve better.".

The result? A little bitch who won't even try to do anything because he is afraid of failing, being wrong, feeling humilliated, not having things go my way or have the fact that I'm just not good at everything proven to me.

 

[eupdplishlp]

this sounds very tiring im sorry for your suffering. to be aware of how harsh you are on yoursrlf yet not able to shake the feeling of it is painful . If you can try not beat yourself up about anything especially in your head

 

[Pluto]

 

[Saponification]

this sounds very tiring im sorry for your suffering. to be aware of how harsh you are on yoursrlf yet not able to shake the feeling of it is painful . If you can try not beat yourself up about anything especially in your head

Appreciate the sentiment.