Venting Maybe that's what being the 'bigger man' is about

[Unhumanly.]

Everytime in an argument I have with any person in my life, I'd have to endure them calling me in the cruelest remark on me, I'd stay silent although that wouldn't also preventing them spitting their venom on me, they'd say how mentally backward I am for not being able to stand up for myself and just standing silently like a dumb person or even call a slur on me, but even if I were to talk back to clear up to them how thing we're in my situation, I won't win either, that would make me an asshole for snapping back at them, that's why in most time I'm choosing to stay silent to not waste my energy further, well, even just having to hear their anger already waste all of my energy to listen to

I cope by keeping the thought to myself, maybe, this is what being the 'bigger man' in the argument is about, to still treat them like a human being who just have a bad day even if they're spitting cruel words at me, but what's the cost to me that I treat them humanly? I'm getting treated inhumanely, By making them human I'm sacrificing the grain of humanity left in me, what's making me human, who feel of my surrounding, now I'm just a wall they think they could throw their frustration at without thinking how it will affect me, maybe in their eyes I'm just a loser, a loser willing to be something they could lash out their frustration to, a loser that can't stand up

But anyway, I stubbornly cope, standing within the value I hold, even if they invent another different image of me in their perspective