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the_final_countdown
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- Dec 29, 2020
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I was recovering my suicidal impulses. Starting to rebuild my life. I really was.
But my health has deteriorated in an unexpected way recently.
I've always taken good care of my teeth. Electric toothbrush, low sugar diet, etc.
Had a checkup in November. No cavities. Everything was good.
But I developed an autoimmune condition, a terrible reaction to medicine that damaged my body so terribly including my vision and sexual function, and left me in psychological agony and despair for months. Tinnitus, vertigo, and bodily damage from the autoimmune disease. Dry eyes (imagine sand in your eyes always. Just chronic pain).
But okay. That's fine. I recovered. Somehow.
But now...The stomach infection that originally caused by autoimmune problems has caused acid to spill into my mouth.
I tried everything...but I couldn't stop the destruction of my enamel.
And now I have cavities. Everywhere. And it's just pain.
And I can't stop it. And I know the pain will become worse.
Because tooth pain is pain incarnate.
I'm going to the dentist. Obviously. Of course.
But there's no miracle cures. It's just going to be suffering. For years.
I don't want that. I don't want to be tortured.
I'm going to end it before it progresses too far...
When the pain becomes unbearable, I'll have the energy to overcome SI.
I have everything ready.
I don't want to go...I don't want to go...But I'm not going to be tortured...No. I'm not going to live my life like that...endless agony.
But my health has deteriorated in an unexpected way recently.
I've always taken good care of my teeth. Electric toothbrush, low sugar diet, etc.
Had a checkup in November. No cavities. Everything was good.
But I developed an autoimmune condition, a terrible reaction to medicine that damaged my body so terribly including my vision and sexual function, and left me in psychological agony and despair for months. Tinnitus, vertigo, and bodily damage from the autoimmune disease. Dry eyes (imagine sand in your eyes always. Just chronic pain).
But okay. That's fine. I recovered. Somehow.
But now...The stomach infection that originally caused by autoimmune problems has caused acid to spill into my mouth.
I tried everything...but I couldn't stop the destruction of my enamel.
And now I have cavities. Everywhere. And it's just pain.
And I can't stop it. And I know the pain will become worse.
Because tooth pain is pain incarnate.
I'm going to the dentist. Obviously. Of course.
But there's no miracle cures. It's just going to be suffering. For years.
I don't want that. I don't want to be tortured.
I'm going to end it before it progresses too far...
When the pain becomes unbearable, I'll have the energy to overcome SI.
I have everything ready.
I don't want to go...I don't want to go...But I'm not going to be tortured...No. I'm not going to live my life like that...endless agony.