Virsus
Member
- Sep 7, 2024
- 18
I am 20 years old.
7 months ago I decided to commit suicide, I was going to go to the forest as far away from my place of residence and my family as possible, but before that I quit my job and take a break from my life for two months, and eventually I found the strength to find hope...
After at least a hundred forums on the topic of suicide, I could not find a place where I could write my thoughts and hopes, where I would be understood, where there would be people like me. But at one point I came across this forum, and I realized that this is the very place...
About two weeks ago I began to have some strength to find a way to get out of this state, I was able to tell my relatives what I feel, a long conversation first with my brother, who was able to accept my problems and supported me, which is extremely surprising for me. Then a conversation with my sister, who, as it turned out, also has a huge number of problems in life and mental health, gave me hope. As a result, a conversation with the whole family, who are now trying to understand and support me. I visited a psychiatrist, who insisted on inpatient treatment, but I am not yet sure that this is worth doing, and I thought about returning my medications, maybe I will find hope. And even my father, who has been against hospitals all his life and especially against mental health treatment, supported me as best he could. I have no friends, no girlfriend, but at least my relatives are trying to understand me.
If this does not contradict the rules of the forum, I will write here my successes and thoughts about recovery, I think - I really need it ...
Today, at the last moment before closing the pharmacy, I was able to get out of bed and order 5 packs of antidepressants, and now I will gradually increase the dose to the maximum until I feel better, along the way I will try to change my lifestyle, and I hope I will be able to find hope.
Now I am sitting in my chair in my apartment fully dressed. I finally found the strength to go for a walk, smoked 6 cigarettes and will soon go outside. I think I'll walk for an hour or two, get at least some pleasure.
Then I plan to return home and hold out until the night without going to bed, to establish my routine and go to bed on time, I hope my recovery will begin here...
7 months ago I decided to commit suicide, I was going to go to the forest as far away from my place of residence and my family as possible, but before that I quit my job and take a break from my life for two months, and eventually I found the strength to find hope...
After at least a hundred forums on the topic of suicide, I could not find a place where I could write my thoughts and hopes, where I would be understood, where there would be people like me. But at one point I came across this forum, and I realized that this is the very place...
About two weeks ago I began to have some strength to find a way to get out of this state, I was able to tell my relatives what I feel, a long conversation first with my brother, who was able to accept my problems and supported me, which is extremely surprising for me. Then a conversation with my sister, who, as it turned out, also has a huge number of problems in life and mental health, gave me hope. As a result, a conversation with the whole family, who are now trying to understand and support me. I visited a psychiatrist, who insisted on inpatient treatment, but I am not yet sure that this is worth doing, and I thought about returning my medications, maybe I will find hope. And even my father, who has been against hospitals all his life and especially against mental health treatment, supported me as best he could. I have no friends, no girlfriend, but at least my relatives are trying to understand me.
If this does not contradict the rules of the forum, I will write here my successes and thoughts about recovery, I think - I really need it ...
Today, at the last moment before closing the pharmacy, I was able to get out of bed and order 5 packs of antidepressants, and now I will gradually increase the dose to the maximum until I feel better, along the way I will try to change my lifestyle, and I hope I will be able to find hope.
Now I am sitting in my chair in my apartment fully dressed. I finally found the strength to go for a walk, smoked 6 cigarettes and will soon go outside. I think I'll walk for an hour or two, get at least some pleasure.
Then I plan to return home and hold out until the night without going to bed, to establish my routine and go to bed on time, I hope my recovery will begin here...