Maybe I should simply kill myself as a consequence of the abuse I experienced by my therapist

[noname223]

It would be a statement. Maybe her behavior would be investigated as a consequence of it. But they would probably only portray me as unstable individual and nothing would change. I think my psychiatrist would get a pretty guilty conscience over it because she betrayed me to defend my former therapist.

It reminds me of a story about a trans woman that killed herself in the capital of my country. She self-immolated because she was sick of getting humiliated. People filmed her self-immolation and dead body. People on social media also far-right politicians mocked her even further after her brutal death.

It hurts that my own mother often sided with my therapist. Another reason not to feel guilty towards her when I kill myself. I am not feeling good. I almost killed myself last year. I found my therapist while being in an acute suicidality clinic. I think though if you are as vulnerable as me people will try to take advantage of you.

 

[XiaroX]

I agree that when you are vulnerable, people will try to take advantage of you. That makes it scary online, as well as RL. In my early years I was violated in so many ways, and later, online, I was hacked and cyberstalked to kingdom come. Yay!

I agree that when you are vulnerable, people will try to take advantage of you. That makes it scary online, as well as RL. In my early years I was violated in so many ways, and later, online, I was hacked and cyberstalked to kingdom come. Yay!

Probably bad choice of words.... what was 'fun' for sadists was not fun for me, and it's still extremely difficult for me to trust anyone. For me, it takes time, and I find reading what people write, in that, over time, I can understand their true beliefs and feelings.