FireFox
Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,625
I believe i am being punished for everything in my life. The sucidial thoughts i now believe is a punishment for everything i have done wrong in my life.
Maybe i deserve the the sucidial thoughts that torment me and suck the life out of me. All this i am going through is karma , pushiment from God or whatever form of bad luck.
When i was in secondary school there was once a disccussion about postnatal depression. I was 16/17 at the time when i made these comments. I said in a class women who have postnatal depression shouldnt be allowed to have children again as the illness could come back again and they may do harm to thier child. A girl in my class said " you know what postnatal depression is
I said " what do you know what about postnatal depression"
She got upset. It turned out her mum had it. I didnt know ..i apologised as i felt bad.
I used to to think sucide was selfish espically if the person had family like children. If you have children you have live for them .
I never used to feel sorry for people with depression espically if they had money. I always believed money was everything.
I always jealous of this girl i went to school with and everyday i wish i had her life. She is still with the guy i always wanted and she has a job.
Maybe i deserve to die
I am selfish,
When i get rejected by guys i want the worst comes out of me.
I once liked a guy at cadets ( a youth organsation) . He had a girlfriend who happened to be a friend. They broke up and he kissed me . He told me he liked me . It turned out he didnt. He said i was a mistake weeks later the kiss. I lost it and screamed at him . Everyone found out what happened including my friend. I was 15 when this happend.
Another time i liked this guy i was 17/18 . He lied to me about being gay so i can longer filrt with him. I only found out when his friends revealed what he had been doing .I screamed at him in the sixth form common room and almost threw him to the floor.
I really like someone, i take interest in thier life , get crushed when they dont feel the same about me
The world does not need me
I am actually posion and i only realise this .
Maybe i deserve the the sucidial thoughts that torment me and suck the life out of me. All this i am going through is karma , pushiment from God or whatever form of bad luck.
When i was in secondary school there was once a disccussion about postnatal depression. I was 16/17 at the time when i made these comments. I said in a class women who have postnatal depression shouldnt be allowed to have children again as the illness could come back again and they may do harm to thier child. A girl in my class said " you know what postnatal depression is
I said " what do you know what about postnatal depression"
She got upset. It turned out her mum had it. I didnt know ..i apologised as i felt bad.
I used to to think sucide was selfish espically if the person had family like children. If you have children you have live for them .
I never used to feel sorry for people with depression espically if they had money. I always believed money was everything.
I always jealous of this girl i went to school with and everyday i wish i had her life. She is still with the guy i always wanted and she has a job.
Maybe i deserve to die
I am selfish,
When i get rejected by guys i want the worst comes out of me.
I once liked a guy at cadets ( a youth organsation) . He had a girlfriend who happened to be a friend. They broke up and he kissed me . He told me he liked me . It turned out he didnt. He said i was a mistake weeks later the kiss. I lost it and screamed at him . Everyone found out what happened including my friend. I was 15 when this happend.
Another time i liked this guy i was 17/18 . He lied to me about being gay so i can longer filrt with him. I only found out when his friends revealed what he had been doing .I screamed at him in the sixth form common room and almost threw him to the floor.
I really like someone, i take interest in thier life , get crushed when they dont feel the same about me
The world does not need me
I am actually posion and i only realise this .