many years ago, i remember feeling zero empathy for suicide victims

[xXSufferingXx]

i was in, what i now, almost would call a cult.
a borderline cult based on some relatively extreme right wing ideologies of the republican type.
don't worry, i was never ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the way with it.
i remember disagreeing with a lot of the republican stuff, even when i was one, or identified as one.
i was listening to that alex jones radio host, the real nutty crazy guy.

i got into that from reading a lot about the illuminati conspiracies.

i don't identify as neither left nor right today, i identify as a completely free thinker. and i'm glad i have been off reading the news for many years now.

but anyway, regarding the title of this post...

i remember one time reading about a suicide, and it even had a video.
someone jumping from very high...
and i was so indoctrinated back then by the republican stuff that i shook my head seeing it, judging this poor person who suicided themselves.
imagine that.
actually fucking judging a person as they are falling from 20 stories high building.
that's some borderline evil ass shit.
not borderline evil, that actually IS evil to judge a person so mentally destroyed that they had to suicide themselves.

i was thinking things like "they took the easy way out".

also one time i saw a video of a cop "rescuing" a suicide attempter, and the woman got mad that she was "rescued".

and i remember that i was judging her also.
i was thinking "how dare she be mad, that cop just saved her life"

i was kind of an asshole.
i mean, i was the kind to never be outspoken about it.
thank god.
looking back, i'm glad i kept those thoughts to myself, and that i never said then publicly.

i was never one of those loud mouth assholes.
but i did kinda share some of the same ultra republican beliefs

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I used to be very judgy towards people who killed themselves too but that was when I was a teenager still. I didn't fully understand what it was like to be suicidal until it happened to me so perhaps that was just kharma coming back to bite me in the ass.

 

[LongJacks]

i was in, what i now, almost would call a cult.
a borderline cult based on some relatively extreme right wing ideologies of the republican type.
don't worry, i was never ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the way with it.
i remember disagreeing with a lot of the republican stuff, even when i was one, or identified as one.
i was listening to that alex jones radio host, the real nutty crazy guy.

i got into that from reading a lot about the illuminati conspiracies.

i don't identify as neither left nor right today, i identify as a completely free thinker. and i'm glad i have been off reading the news for many years now.

but anyway, regarding the title of this post...

i remember one time reading about a suicide, and it even had a video.
someone jumping from very high...
and i was so indoctrinated back then by the republican stuff that i shook my head seeing it, judging this poor person who suicided themselves.
imagine that.
actually fucking judging a person as they are falling from 20 stories high building.
that's some borderline evil ass shit.
not borderline evil, that actually IS evil to judge a person so mentally destroyed that they had to suicide themselves.

i was thinking things like "they took the easy way out".

also one time i saw a video of a cop "rescuing" a suicide attempter, and the woman got mad that she was "rescued".

and i remember that i was judging her also.
i was thinking "how dare she be mad, that cop just saved her life"

i was kind of an asshole.
i mean, i was the kind to never be outspoken about it.
thank god.
looking back, i'm glad i kept those thoughts to myself, and that i never said then publicly.

i was never one of those loud mouth assholes.
but i did kinda share some of the same ultra republican beliefs

Don't feel guilty we aren't perfect and we all did mistakes what matters is that you at least realized the reality that most people live in, before I viewed suicide as a bad thing myself bug it's not entirely bad being free from this world... and especially as I had a cousin who committed suicide I felt like suicide was "Dumb" but I was "Dumb" when I grew up and and started to wake up to reality and ended up suicidal myself... as we grow older we learn things that change us

 

[behindtheveil]

I feel it's somewhat destined.