Discussion Main reason you want to CTB. Poll

[Forever Sleep]

I know the question comes up a lot- it's the most obvious one after all but, I thought it might be interesting to see as a poll. Do we have any more common motives?

I realise that suicide is often the result of a combination of factors of course but- allowing multiple votes I thought would make it too bland- so- it's whether you have a main reason you want to CTB and what that is.

These polls only allow for 10 options- so- it could well be your reason isn't listed. In which case- sorry- maybe use the 'other' option to share it.

My main reason is not seeing the likelihood of creating a life I would find worthwhile. I guess ultimately- that reason is going to be the same for everyone. Still- while my motives do tie in to things like finances- that's the main feeling for me. I can't see myself being able to create a future for myself in which I'll be even remotely happy!

 

[Unattainable666]

There are so many reasons why I want to ctb. Loneliness, financial, everyone who loves me has already died, lack of family or friends - the list goes on and on .

 

[oddetoad]

Because of censoring

 

[FuneralCry]

Because I don't see anything desirable about this futile and meaningless process of decaying and deteriorating, just waiting to die anyway. I see suicide as very rational to avoid suffering, the true problem lies in existence itself, I have awareness of how existence is nothing more than an unnecessary harm. Only the existing have the ability to suffer and not the dead, that on it's own is enough to make me see it as always preferable to not exist.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Top 3

Avoiding the future

Financial troubles

My heart issue potentially getting worse.

Much like yourself @Forever Sleep I'm not optimistic at all about any chances of creating a future I'd be absolutely happy I didn't miss out on.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Main reason: financial troubles and no suitable way out that would satisfy me.

 

[Neverfeltdeader]

All of the above.

 

[Life_and_Death]

why not the option to choose multiple??

poor mental and physical state
trauma
Dysmorphia
avoiding the future

 

[FutureHanger]

I chose unlikely to create ideal life outcome though really it's also poor mental health as my depression and recent trauma I've been put through caused me to be too unmotivated/tired/"weak" to be able to achieve my goals. I one day fully embraced the fact I've been deluding myself from which is that I'm not gonna get over my mental health issues and achieve my goals any time soon

 

[Forever Sleep]

why not the option to choose multiple??

poor mental and physical state
trauma
Dysmorphia
avoiding the future

Because lots of people will have multiple reasons and I wondered if we'd have clear winners here. Otherwise, it tends to become- everyone struggles with multiple things- which is kind of true but not all that clean cut in a poll. It would be good if we could rank our reasons in terms of severity- then, multiple votes would be good I think but, I don't think we can.

Still- polls are simple to set up- so, I'd encourage anyone to have a go. I think most of us enjoy a poll. So, if you'd prefer a different approach, I'm sure people would be fine with voting again.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

There are many reasons
Broken heart
Autism
No career
Trauma
Depression
Fear of future

 

[Darkover]

the thing that let me down in life is poor mental and physical health but the main resaon is physical health literally got a debilitating brain injury

 

[Life_and_Death]

Because lots of people will have multiple reasons and I wondered if we'd have clear winners here. Otherwise, it tends to become- everyone struggles with multiple things- which is kind of true but not all that clean cut in a poll. It would be good if we could rank our reasons in terms of severity- then, multiple votes would be good I think but, I don't think we can.

Still- polls are simple to set up- so, I'd encourage anyone to have a go. I think most of us enjoy a poll. So, if you'd prefer a different approach, I'm sure people would be fine with voting again.

that makes sense, id probably have to say trauma then, because without it i wouldnt have over half the problems i do and the other ones id be able to handle better

 

[EvisceratedJester]

My main reason for ctbing is because I feel like a burden to those around me and I'm tired of existing. I also have a lot of fears about my future and growing old, and I fucking hate myself, but my main reason is due to me being a burden on those around me. My family worked so hard to provide for and raise someone who turned out to be nothing but a retarded, selfish, spoiled, untalented, piece of shit who has never accomplished anything outside of making the lives of those around them difficult. I think putting it to an end is the best for all of us.

 

[Silent_cries]

I picked the "Unlikelyhood to create a life that is liveable" option bc my main reason for ctb is my crippling anxiety witch litterary makes my life unliveable. I guess unbearable mental illness applies to this too, but my life being unlivable is my main reason.

I picked the "Unlikelyhood to create a life that is liveable" option bc my main reason for ctb is my crippling anxiety witch litterary makes my life unliveable. I guess unbearable mental illness applies to this too, but my life being unlivable is my main reason.

I meant poor mental health, not unbearable mental health, but you get it.

 

[Adûnâi]

I'm surprised loneliness is only 7.7%. Does it cover inceldom? Because the word is somewhat murky - I'm asocial, so loneliness doesn't necessarily bother me, but the lack of handholding/sex does.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Tired. Very tired - and getting betrayed, again and again.

 

[misthios2040]

My mental illness makes living life like I've got a bag over my head. I am paralyzed (not physically but mentally)and can't do anything. I'm also severely dumb and my anxiety prevents me from being comfortable in a room with people. I don't know how to explain what goes on in my head other than the fact that there are a million voices just yelling in my brain. That's all I hear is just screaming. My head feels like it's going to pop off from all the pressure built up in my head.

 

[Silent_cries]

Because I don't see anything desirable about this futile and meaningless process of decaying and deteriorating, just waiting to die anyway. I see suicide as very rational to avoid suffering, the true problem lies in existence itself, I have awareness of how existence is nothing more than an unnecessary harm. Only the existing have the ability to suffer and not the dead, that on it's own is enough to make me see it as always preferable to not exist.

I see you're still around, tough luck! I don't know if you remember me, I was gone from this forum for 3yrs after all, but I'm hoping to be gone from existence soon as I'm planning to ctb for real this time. In case I do succed, I just wanted to say that I hope you find peace one day. I hope for you that your wish to die comes true if that's what you truly desire, maybe even from natural causes. Either way, take care <3 I might not have known you for long, but it was nice knowing you :) I just hope SI won't get the best of me, coz SI sure is a bitch!