2CTBorNOCTB
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- Apr 2, 2021
- 14
So, I've seen that psilocybin has been discussed as a means of treating depression, but I'd like to give tale of my experience.
I've taken magic mushrooms a number of times before. I grew some a month back, and a couple of days ago I decided to take 5g dried, as a sort of final resort.
During the trip, I was at first anxious, but that dissipated into calm, and at some point in the trip, I lost myself. It felt as if I was communing with an entity that resides right at the cusp of existence/non-existence. I felt sorrow from it, because of the loss if I were to die, but there was also compassion, for the reasons I've chosen what I'm doing, and ultimately, acceptance. That it wouldn't begrudge me my decision of joining back with the void. All this felt very calming, and I think if I had decided to CTB right then and there I very much would have done it no issue.
I'm wondering if anyone has had a similar experience. I've never really experienced something like that before. It could be argued that my mind chose to show me what it needed to just to calm me but...it was effective.
I'm now planning on taking 3g of mushies before I CTB. Might be risky since it makes me nauseous, but if I can experience something like what I did a couple of nights back, it would be worth it.
I've taken magic mushrooms a number of times before. I grew some a month back, and a couple of days ago I decided to take 5g dried, as a sort of final resort.
During the trip, I was at first anxious, but that dissipated into calm, and at some point in the trip, I lost myself. It felt as if I was communing with an entity that resides right at the cusp of existence/non-existence. I felt sorrow from it, because of the loss if I were to die, but there was also compassion, for the reasons I've chosen what I'm doing, and ultimately, acceptance. That it wouldn't begrudge me my decision of joining back with the void. All this felt very calming, and I think if I had decided to CTB right then and there I very much would have done it no issue.
I'm wondering if anyone has had a similar experience. I've never really experienced something like that before. It could be argued that my mind chose to show me what it needed to just to calm me but...it was effective.
I'm now planning on taking 3g of mushies before I CTB. Might be risky since it makes me nauseous, but if I can experience something like what I did a couple of nights back, it would be worth it.