It's fine I already told professionals about the mind control , that i'd been told how to ctb and that i'd be given a date otherwise lots of people will die. I just haven't told them the date and 'promised' i'll ring the crisis team if i'm planning to do it or feel unsafe. And they're happy for me stay in community so it's fine.
It's hard to be sectioned (committed) where I live . In the past when I was unsure about ctb, i told professionals I had the means, plan and timeframe. They sent me some youtube videos on mindfulness and said see you next week. I did do it before next appt., ended up in hospital resus and I was allowed home from general hospital without going to psych ward.
I have been sectioned once though and i'll make sure to avoid it ever again. It hasn't led to surveillance or checks in after.
I'm back under a different service by choice (as i need help protecting others) atm but last year services happily discharged me when i refused therapy and told them I wanted to die not get better.
The mental health services haven't ruined my life. I don't live in a small town so people only know what I tell them. I'm not working because i cant cope with it due to how i'm feeling.
It's been really hard to get MH support in first place and services are desperate to discharge people so nothing is going to be forced. Crisis services here and known for putting the phone down on suicidal people, saying things like 'you have capacity to end your life so nothing we can do' . One even instructed someone how to OD better.
I'm so sorry for your experiences. It's horrible that you and others have been punished for being unwell, made out like a criminal, it's awful
But i've ruined my own life already and I plan to end it so i'm really not concerned about jobs or money.