Mmm yeah no, that's not how it works buddy. Just sounds like you're horny

. You absolutely can be expected to function. Seriously, you think monks and nuns go wild cause they've go no where to stick it? I mean I get being frusturated and all but dropping all accountability bc 'I can't get some!' is a real sorry way to paint yourself and also just straight up not true. Go out, get a hobby, try tennis, put the corn down, pick up a book.
Everyone completely misunderstands this entire post. Also, guessing you didn't read the link in the post, where I explain I was
excluded from humanity.
I wasn't horny at all. I had an acute bout of delirium caused by the deprivation of sex, intimacy, and a deep connection to the feminine. The onset triggered when I was setting logistics for my medically assisted rational suicide, scheduled 4 weeks from now. That impending finality mixed with an extreme craving for sex, intimacy, and a deep connection to the feminine caused me to crash. Legs got extremely weak and vision got blurry. During that bout, which has resolved since waking today, I couldn't be expected to function. Monks and nuns are irrelevant examples here. This is a cause of being locked away from humanity, my humanity, involuntarily, for 13 years. Clawing for connection is so deeply desired, I entered a delirious, rabies like state.
It's not frustration, it was delirium. It would be like blaming a dog with rabies for biting. Has nothing to do with porn.
Basically, it's parts of my body raging against the other parts that have kept it imprisoned and unable to become what I was supposed to. My imagination paints a beautiful life that was taken from me, mixed with the craving for that which I was born in expectation of, caused me, to literally, lose my mind.
It may very well happen again, given that I will never be at peace with what I was deprived of.