Discussion lurking this place as a non suicidal person is surreal.

[Schizo_turk]

daily, i see posts of people who want to die A.S.A.P, even people who are going to C.T.B tonight, on the other hand am not suicidal at all, i just know there is a time when shit will hit the fan, and i will be left with no other option other than C.T.B, i have no plans to off my self at any time soon, as long i am not on the verge of going homeless and hungry, but, it's surreal being here, that is all, i am not judging anyone. it's also why i fear this site will get taken down, and by the tme i want to C.T.B, i will not find any place online with enough resources, do's and dont's, i am thinking in the long run, i never wanted to C.T.B in my life despite having seen some awful things in my schizophrenic episodes, but, i always wanted to save the option of C.T.B to the point where things become too unbearable (hunger and homelesness).

 

[Richard Langford]

If you're "not suicidal at all" my advice would be to leave here. It isn't going to be doing your MH any good at all reading these threads.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

It is worse when you get used to it and being here feels not surral but normal.

 

[soonnotkoei]

if you're not suicidal, but just struggling, there is a recovery section on this site. maybe you'll like that?

 

[Schizo_turk]

I think, I have immunity, just because i do not want to C.T.B A.T.M does not mean, there are not meaningful discussions that i cannot have with people here, but, yes, i try to avoid spending 2 much time on here for the sake of my own mental health, plus, like i said, I will most likely need to C.T.B on the long run sadly, so, it's worth it to keep up with the C.T.B resources here, just in case.

If you're "not suicidal at all" my advice would be to leave here. It isn't going to be doing your MH any good at all reading these threads.

I am up with that too.

 

[Namelesa]

I totally respect for you for not invalidating us and our want to ctb. Even if I recover from my mental illnesses I am probably going to still interact with this place as this where I feel like I most belong and will probably kill myself at some point anyways as I think life is too long. Whatever you choose to do, I hope it is of as little suffering as possible.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, I agree with some of the replies to your comment. Stay away from this place if you are non-suicidal. Peace

 

[G000pie]

For the non-suicidal, it's surreal. For the suicidal, it's comforting. At least to me. I've been at rock bottom for so long that it's really nice to finally find a place where I can talk about it freely without a billion people throwing hotline numbers at me. To just be listened to and to listen to others going through similar struggles

 

[Schizo_turk]

Yeah, I agree with some of the replies to your comment. Stay away from this place if you are non-suicidal. Peace

Nah check my thread here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...because-of-poverty-and-medical-issues.193015/

i think there is a misunderstanding, when i say "i am not suicidal A.T.M" it means, i save the idea for the future when things become unbearable.

 

[Luminous_]

Yeah, I agree with some of the replies to your comment. Stay away from this place if you are non-suicidal. Peace

I don't think it's our place to judge and try to kick him out solely because he wants to live, I've heard his story and unfortunately eventually, he will need to commit. He has disability and after his mom goes will have no one to care for him and no money to survive, which I resonate with in some way despite my disabilities being invisible. It's a very lonesome situation which he's found solace in by posting his thoughts and talking to likeminded people.

 

[EternalShore]

it's weird tbh~ When I have introduced this place to people, they think it's scary~ >_< meanwhile, it's always just been completely normal for me! xD Maybe it was weird at first, but I don't remember being too uncomfy besides just having to word things certain ways not to upset people (as I still seem to do regardless :/) and not being constantly jealous of everyone else~
plus, there's the off-topic section which can get one used to the site too! :3 I've always liked talking in there lots myself! xD
Everyone here is super nice, so I hope you're able to get comfy on this site and avoid things that make you uncomfy (like goodbye threads >_<)~

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I honestly have no idea why the above replies are being so invalidating and telling you to leave this site when you clearly stated in your post that you want to have the option to ctb when things get too unbearable. This is a valid feeling to have and it's absolutely valid to want to plan ahead in case things do get unbearable. Just because you're on this site doesn't mean that you have to ctb now but, if you do want to ctb in the future, it's definitely a good idea to start planning as early as possible and analyse your options. I commend you for thinking far into your future as this is absolutely a valid concern to have which could come into fruition one day. By the time that this so called unbearable thing happens, it could be too late had you not planned earlier

 

[TinyGuy]

Why do people want OP gone so badly?Let the man be here as long as he doesn't do anything that will bother us I don't see a problem especially when he stated that he might want to CTB in the future and is scared that this site will be gone.

 

[danny10]

It felt surreal for me as well at first, even though I am suicidal. Now, I start all my days with this site, where people understand how shitty is depression and suicidal ideation. I love the community on this site and it feels comforting that there are other people other there just like me.

 

[crocune]

I don't see it as trying to force him to.leave but rather understanding this place can be very negative and reinforce bad mental thoughts . Sure it can have positive effects too but I think in general more negative and some of us want ppl to not ctb unless it's their final option.

 

[Forever Sleep]

The first 'goodbye' thread I came across felt surreal definitely. It was in real time too. It did really confront me with questioning my beliefs. A part of me dreaded him taking the N (fairly unusual but, he'd acquired it when it was still available.)

But then, he seemed so sure. So calm. I just thought- I am pro-choice so- I have to respect this man's choice. He's clearly suffered and he wants his suffering to end. I couldn't not wish that for him. (Although I suppose we always worry that that was in fact their only realistic option to stop their pain.)

But yeah, it's kind of strange that at this very moment in fact- whether they're part of this community or not, someone will be making that very last decision for themselves. Weirder still to think one day it might be our turn. I'm just so grateful I wasn't alone on my (long) journey. I'm so grateful for this community.

I hope you find what you were looking for here. I suspect other members who seem nervous or disparaging may well be doing it for well meaning reasons. Probably concern for your mental well being but, I think a lot of people realise themselves if outside stimuli are making them feel worse.

 

[Richard Langford]

I don't see it as trying to force him to.leave but rather understanding this place can be very negative and reinforce bad mental thoughts . Sure it can have positive effects too but I think in general more negative and some of us want ppl to not ctb unless it's their final option.

It can indeed as per your first sentence.

 

[Adûnâi]

I literally don't know any other websites that offer support - aside from the incel one, and SaSu. Hence I'm here. Also, many of the people I've met here are super nice (left-wing notwithstanding). So sure, I feel fake here as well as I'm not gonna use my SN unless in an emergence (or reaching 30 xd). But the community is often times nice (unless a random leftie harasses me, sadge).

 

[Giraffe]

Suicide is always an option for everyone, and everyone knows that! I don't think there is a single person who wouldn't at the very least consider killing themselves if they hit rock bottom. Some people are determined to stay alive, even in such circumstances, but the thought is never eradicated, because the option is always available.

 

[Killmeonce]

I can only imagine how weird it is as a non suicidal person to be on here. The constant goodbye posts and method talk must be shocking for you. I know it would be for people in my life who arent suicidal.

 

[Lo$t95]

My reaction was relief that it exists. It's comforting. Relieving of loneliness and above all you can be honest. Nowhere else is like this. I really appreciate this place.

 

[BlockHammer]

Your motivation kindda remind me of mine, at first i don't want to die i just want to have an option if things get bad. I do hope that you weren't gonna go to the CTB route though, good luck with life

 

[oneeyed]

Geez, I must have been really desensitized about suicide. People here saying it's surreal and here I am thinking it's just another forum with like minded people who want to take control of their life (be it recovery or ctb)

Hopefully this site doesn't come down, I've learned alot from it.