Blowba
A Girl on the Shore
- Aug 12, 2018
- 76
I am a person who has extremely low self worth for themselves never in my life I have ever reached a point where I believed I am worthy or had a decent self esteem. Something that people who know me can say that is a fact about me. Never truly believed I am worth for anyone's time and attention. I usually had let people do whatever they want to do with me physically, emotionally, and mentally even in regards with money. Everyday when I look at myself in the mirror I want destroy it or just end myself. I hate myself so much I hate existing, I just want to end it all. I know the reason in which I feel this way because around the age of 4-5 and I have been molested and I remember how one of my family members on my father side if anything like that happens to someone it was essentially the victims fault. I have been ashamed of myself at such a young age I kept it to myself and I never had the proper way to process it. It messed with myself worth that I believe that's how I should also be treated.