Lottery

[endlessmelancholy]

Will you still ctb if you win the lottery( millionsofdollars) ?

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

yes, though it may be postponed by a bit a few years (maybe) depending on circumstances

 

[Big_Eal]

yes , id give the money to my family

 

[StrugglingSienna]

I would spend half of it on hookers and blow or whatever, give the rest to family and friends, and then off myself. Might delay my death by a few months to a year.

 

[_soulless_]

I would use part of the money in medical procedures to try to cure my iatrogenic condition then if it succeeds I would probably never think about ctb

 

[ma0]

I'd donate all of it and then CTB. I don't want to be hogging that money from people who actually need it.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

It would postpone it and then depend on what money can buy (or not) for the longer term.

 

[CentreMid]

Yes. Though more money would be nice, the factors that are pushing me to ctb are things that money can't fix. I'd want to donate my winnings to the various local LGBTQ+ organizations/charities in my city

 

[mossrabbit]

If that would help me exist with chronic illness a little easier, it'd lessen my desire to considerably. I'm not sure if better access to medical care would ease my discomfort, at this stage.

It'd help me leave something for loved ones, it might even hasten my decision.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

yes i will still ctb no matter what. i would never want to live in this hell world and evil life under any circumstances .

plus non-existence forever is the ultimate bliss. so leave hell for the ultimate bliss ? yes

only while alive can i suffer extremely. after Death = permanent non-existence i can't suffer extremely or at all . so eternal non-existence is much better than living

i don't want anything from this evil world and life

Even AM an ai with god-like powers didn't want to exist but was immortal in the story "I have no mouth and i must scream"

https://openlab.citytech.cuny.edu/?get_group_doc=22694/1540157347-HarlanEllison-IHaveNoMouthandIMustScream.pdf

 

[Avril]

CTB, yes. But it could delay it. I don't know, I've always wanted to get married before I died.

 

[ToANewWorld]

If I won the lottery at this point I would buy a house with built in acommodations and try to raise a family. The caveat here being that $$$ stops my condition from worsening, which is not guaranteed

 

[pretentioussuika]

The only reason i still would is if Trump has tanked the value of the dollar so much that by the time it hits my bank account it's barely worth anything

 

[kunikuzushi]

I don't even know if I would have the motivation to improve my life with the money. And buying things I want won't make me feel anything. I already have many "good" experiences that money can buy, but it's not enough to make me want to live. I just know I can't live through this torture much longer, so yes I would still ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

No matter what I'll only ever hope and wish for non-existence, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all that can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, to me existence itself is an abomination that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this futile, torturous existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway.

I don't have any interest in the dreadful, cruel burden of existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just for them to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence, for me non-existence would solve everything and is all I see as desirable. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, for me existence itself is the true problem which is why I'll only hope and wish for death no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I find it so horrific how a human can exist for so long just to face way worse suffering and torture.

 

[leloyon]

Yes. It would improve my quality of life a lot, however the hurt I feel is something that will never heal, not even with all the money in the world to try to plug the holes with.