Lost

[-nobodyknows-]

I don't know what to do anymore.

I want to be helped, but I am so tired. Dealing with things on my own is not working. I've done therapy. I've been on medication. It hasn't worked out.

What do I do now? Is there anything more to do? Am I screwed?

I think I'm screwed. I know what I need; I know it would help me. But I am too messed up now.

How long should I try to hope for the future? I don't think I can wait much longer. I am just not that strong anymore.

I wish that someone could give me an answer. "You just have to hold out until this date, and then things will start to change". Or, alternatively, "You are too far gone and will live a life in misery".

I want to tell someone everything. I want them to tell me that everything will be okay, because they are there now.

I know I am just repeating and rephrasing things now. I don't know why I post about these things.

I just need it to end.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

it sounds like maybe talking with someone objective could help. i'm sorry you're feeling this way xx feel free to convo me if you'd like. open ear.

 

[Innereye]

At least for me. I plan on trying TMS/ECT before I'm done.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

At least for me. I plan on trying TMS/ECT before I'm done.

I tried that too.

 

[babouflo201223]

Je ne sais plus quoi faire.

J'aimerais qu'on m'aide, mais je suis tellement fatiguée. Je n'arrive pas à gérer les choses toute seule. J'ai suivi une thérapie, j'ai pris des médicaments, mais ça n'a pas marché.

Que dois-je faire maintenant ? Est-ce qu'il me reste quelque chose à faire ? Suis-je dans la merde ?

Je crois que je suis dans la merde. Je sais ce dont j'ai besoin, je sais que ça m'aiderait. Mais je suis trop défoncée maintenant.

Combien de temps devrais-je essayer d'espérer pour l'avenir ? Je ne pense pas pouvoir attendre plus longtemps. Je ne suis tout simplement plus aussi forte.

J'aimerais que quelqu'un puisse me répondre : « Tu dois tenir jusqu'à cette date et ensuite les choses commenceront à changer ». Ou alors : « Tu es allé trop loin et tu vivras une vie de misère ».

Je veux tout dire à quelqu'un. Je veux qu'il me dise que tout ira bien, parce qu'il est là maintenant.

Je sais que je ne fais que répéter et reformuler les choses maintenant. Je ne sais pas pourquoi je publie sur ce sujet.

J'ai juste besoin que ça se termine.

You say you know what you need and that will help you. So, it's maybe not so complicated you believe. Can you tell me what you need (if you're sure of that) ?

 

[Innereye]

I tried that too.

Damn. I guess the other novel treatments are psychedelics or ketamine. In case you haven't tried those

 

[-nobodyknows-]

You say you know what you need and that will help you. So, it's maybe not so complicated you believe. Can you tell me what you need (if you're sure of that) ?

I need someone in my life that I can talk to about things and spend time with when I feel like I want to hurt myself. In the past these things have really helped a lot, but they always ended up being too much for the other person.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Could I help? I've felt so many people hurt me that I've gotten used to it, even if you hurt me unintentionally, it's okay (I'm being honest), but I can only do it online... including my best friend is from here.

I appreciate the offer, but I'm not really looking for that here. Given the nature of this place I am reluctant to connect with people on here. However, feel free to engage with me on the forum or in the chatrooms.