Lost the will to live

[lostmylove]

No interest in actually anything at all.

I don't need money own property and had 6 figure a year salary for last 5 years.

I'm 24 don't have any responsibilities, obligations or anything I have to do.

I just sit in bed crying over fact my partner is dead. He's really all I had to balance out all of the bad thoughts.

Since he's been gone I've been so isolated I haven't been aware but he is pretty much only person I talked to all day long now there's a massive gap in my life and my heart.

Although pains unbearable right now, I don't actually see there is a way or viable path forward.

What the hell am I meant to do with my life.

No friends, won't be able to love anyone else again, no interest or need to work. Totally traumatized. No hobbies or interests. I'm legit jus sat in bed crying . I can see myself drifting for few more months but what's the point...


:/ totally unsure what I want to do.

 

[Someone123]

No interest in actually anything at all.

I don't need money own property and had 6 figure a year salary for last 5 years.

I'm 24 don't have any responsibilities, obligations or anything I have to do.

I just sit in bed crying over fact my partner is dead. He's really all I had to balance out all of the bad thoughts.

Since he's been gone I've been so isolated I haven't been aware but he is pretty much only person I talked to all day long now there's a massive gap in my life and my heart.

Although pains unbearable right now, I don't actually see there is a way or viable path forward.

What the hell am I meant to do with my life.

No friends, won't be able to love anyone else again, no interest or need to work. Totally traumatized. No hobbies or interests. I'm legit jus sat in bed crying . I can see myself drifting for few more months but what's the point...


:/ totally unsure what I want to do.

If you have no need to work this at least gives you some time. Trying to make friends could potentially help- would you consider this as an option?

 

[timf]

Grief can see unbearable initially. You may notice that it can seem to lessen and then reoccur. However, over time recurrence can lessen in intensity and frequency.

You might consider a grief support group where you could get some insight from others who also are learning to cope as well as being a help to others.

It can also be helpful to savor fond memories even if they can trigger sadness, because in this way the best of who they were lives on in us.

 

[lostmylove]

Grief can see unbearable initially. You may notice that it can seem to lessen and then reoccur. However, over time recurrence can lessen in intensity and frequency.

You might consider a grief support group where you could get some insight from others who also are learning to cope as well as being a help to others.

It can also be helpful to savor fond memories even if they can trigger sadness, because in this way the best of who they were lives on in us.

i appreciate that, it's still raw though and getting worse . I can understand grief I've lost many comrades in life but this is just something I can't see myself bouncing back from. This feels like all the hopes an dreams of my happiness in the future have been taken away.

I only wanted to be with my partner and he was my rock I based my future life goals on. Doing anything else would be accepting second best and there's 0 chance of me being able to be happy with anyone else or be able to even open up and be close to anyone in same level. He was my soul mate my best friend my life there's O chance I have a future now it's so disheartening

 

[whywere]

My best friend ever, accidently drowned in March 1982 and it completely threw me for a huge loss, and it totally messed me up, as I had no one else who I could confide in like him.

So, I have some idea what you are experiencing. It took me till 1983 to start getting things arranged in my mind, and what helped me was the fact that I remembered that he told me on more than one occasion, that we would always be best buddies and that if something happened to one of us, than the other would go on and make a go of it in life in the others memory.

That aspect helped me to finally move on and now after 40 years, i have very fond memories of him and I know that he would be happy for me.

I send you lots of huge hugs, the knowledge that you are never alone, as you are a good friend, and I really care about you a lot and want the best for you.

Have a sun filled weekend and all my best to you.

Walter

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Im sorry for your suffering and for your lost. My advice is take a time for yourself and set a date. Then, start to return to '"life". I hope you can find peace and I wish you the best.

 

[gionnicrash]

I recently lost a person dear to me, the first months were excruciating... but now I feel completely numb, as if I no longer feel anything, as if no one dear to me has passed away. I don't know if I can explain... but it's really strange, before I spent my days letting myself be devoured by the grief and now I spend my days feeling guilty because I don't feel anything, and I can't even understand why. I don't know if it's some kind of "defense mechanism" but I'm even starting to remember my memories of this person with less and less clarity, as if my head is slowly formatting itself.
The only thing I can advise you is to try to do something, anything, but don't let yourself be devoured by the grief.
Sorry if my answer doesn't help...

 

[lostmylove]

Thing I've realised is he kept me in line so much, kept me sober, kept me focused kept me working towards goals to better myself, kept me from feeling lonely. He had my back man when he told me he loved me, I knew he actually meant it unlike other people. Him leaving has totally destroyed my world and I don't want to live anymore :(

 

[Funeralprincess]

No interest in actually anything at all.

I don't need money own property and had 6 figure a year salary for last 5 years.

I'm 24 don't have any responsibilities, obligations or anything I have to do.

I just sit in bed crying over fact my partner is dead. He's really all I had to balance out all of the bad thoughts.

Since he's been gone I've been so isolated I haven't been aware but he is pretty much only person I talked to all day long now there's a massive gap in my life and my heart.

Although pains unbearable right now, I don't actually see there is a way or viable path forward.

What the hell am I meant to do with my life.

No friends, won't be able to love anyone else again, no interest or need to work. Totally traumatized. No hobbies or interests. I'm legit jus sat in bed crying . I can see myself drifting for few more months but what's the point...


:/ totally unsure what I want to do.

Hey. Text me. 5408184808
I'm in a similar situation and am looking for a good friend. I'm 25. You can even call me if you like :)

 

[Eternaloblivionplea]

Life's prescription. A dose of unbearable suffering with an add on of apathy and anhedonia.