Lost in a spiral

[IwanttodieASAP]

I wanted to come to you guys for advice. All the responses on here are balanced with multiple perspectives. That said, please help...

I have been set on ctb for a long time now. I'll spare you all the details (I do have a failed goodbye thread that I explain everything if you are interested). Anyway my chose of method is full suspension and I plan to go in the woods behind my house in a bigger forested area. I cannot do it on my property because I feel that would be beyond evil to do to my family. I keep going out and looking for trees with a branch structure ryar I could tie a rope to and still have slack on another limb. I would lower myself off that limb so as I suspend I could not get back onto the other limb if thar makes any sense


Anyway I have been out looking for a spot twice now and I cannot find an place that even begins to work. Do you think it is my SI making it impossible for me to find one? Should I keep looking or is there a better way to do thus you can think of?

Please give me your detailed opinions if you eould be so kind

 

[IwanttodieASAP]

It even breaks me further when I'm honest and open for once and then no one responds. Not in one response

 

[tiredone]

Sometimes you wont get response as nobody will know what to say( be it lack of knowledge or dont know what to say). Dont beat yourself over it. Many posts go without response for long time.

 

[wantittoendsoon]

I don't think it is your SI as much as looking for perfection. Basically any strong branch of the proper height will work. If We could see the area maybe we could do more.

 

[IwanttodieASAP]

Sometimes you wont get response as nobody will know what to say( be it lack of knowledge or dont know what to say). Dont beat yourself over it. Many posts go without response for long time.

Fair enough thank you

I don't think it is your SI as much as looking for perfection. Basically any strong branch of the proper height will work. If We could see the area maybe we could do more.

Yeah that makes sense. I guess u cannot really say where it is though so I cannot be stopped

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

I do think it could be a touch of SI. Or it could be that there's still a part of you that isn't ready to go yet. Hard to say with the limited knowledge I have of you.
I hope that things work out for you, one way or another